8 chapters in S&S and I canāt shake this weird feeling as if Alina using her powers is some dark forbidden thing. And I donāt even know how to describe it, it just feels like the author creates this atmosphere of something wicked and tabooed around the moments when Alina used her powers which we barely had a handful of.
Whenever she thinks about getting more power it sounds like a sacrifice but I just canāt take it seriously because the logic is completely off to me. In the beginning of the book Alina doesnāt use her powers because sheās in hiding and that could potentially expose her, and her suppression of powers makes her weak again. And the moment she goes back to using it she blossoms. So how am I supposed to feel bad about the fact that sheās trying to get more powerful when that same power she was born with is something that keeps her healthy and well. And I know the nuance is there and that the amplifiers are supposedly something unnatural in this scenario and all yada yada. But I just cannot.. all I keep thinking about is how a woman protagonist is being constantly side eyed and punished for trying to get the power she clearly wants.
