This Is My Story! 💁😘

I’ll risk it all for you! I’ll wear your last name 🤞🏽🔒

You ever just feel super alone no matter who's around or how much you're being blessed? Well that's how I feel... it's like these past couple of months I've been trying to drown out how I feel deep down inside by focusing on the positivity like I woke up this morning , I have food in my belly , I have a roof over my head, and I have a job I can go to everyday.. but something is always missing like I'm not genuinely happy deep down inside.. I wish I had that one person that was my happiness when I'm feeling completely shitty.. I wish I was strong enough to love each curve I have and even added on from having a baby.. I wish I had that one person as my outlet and let me know they love me beyond measures and teach me how to love myself again but I have none of that so a lot of this is becoming a real struggle for me... I genuinely wish I could experience what true and pure love is.... I know God loves me unconditionally but I want that man that not only loves God unconditionally but me as well! That man that shows me I'm the only one he wants and I'm his strength when he's weak... I just ultimately want true love in my life....

I’m emotionally and physically drained I can’t take anymore beating up of my heart! I need a new beginning and a fresh start just something that gives me a breath of fresh air! I’ve been treated like shit for so long that I’m actually becoming numb and heartless something I’ve never wanted to be! I’m the blame for a lot of things and that’s okay. I’m learning my worth now and I refuse to be treated any less than I deserve I guess this was Gods way of telling me it’s time to really let go I'm tired of my son seeing me cry! Smh