i’m the worst one.

i know dofp was kind of a trainwreck of a movie but i’m still thinking about the implications of john’s lighter being on the memorial wall and the fact that he survived all the shit at alcatraz just to be murdered by sentinels only a few years later. it haunts me.

i think my favorite john scene ever is the one at the very start of X2 when him, rogue and bobby are just hanging out after sneaking away from the field trip because it shows exactly what could have been if they were just allowed to be teenagers! john’s being antagonistic towards the other boys but it’s light and playful — despite the halfhearted attempts at deescalation, bobby is laughing and rogue is smiling and it encourages him to keep going cause those are his friends and he’s making them laugh! they’re having fun! it’s only when the other boys start getting physical ( stealing his lighter, pushing him when he tries to rightfully get it back ) that he actually escalates to using his powers. and even when does, it’s cheeky, not malicious — the fire was nothing more than a flash meant to frighten and was under his control the entire time.

you know what's cool? when writers let pyro use his powers in unorthodox ways that’s not just making giant flaming creatures. like him jamming a gun by snuffing out the spark that would have caused the gun to fire ( marauders ) or cauterizing a gunshot wound ( ultimates )

noah kahan’s new album’s central theme being about leaving your childhood home behind and the pain you inflict (intentional or not) on the loved ones you leave behind……. sorry for being so st john pilled that i find his story in everything

goddammit i was hoping that xmen doomsday leaked trailer was AI because i didn’t want to get my hopes up but now the official accounts just posted it. motherfucker i do NOT want to be excited for this movie 😭

thinking about dp&w again and how, intentional or not, void!pyro is a direct parallel to logan. both are deeply flawed and angry individuals who walked away from the people who care for them because of their inability to believe they could be cared for. even if they wanted to change, they did so too late — as a result, logan’s family was killed and pyro was pruned. there’s no way back, they can’t undo their mistakes. they can only move forward and live with their choices and not let the past drag them further down.

i think there should be a club for guys named john with fire powers. maybe not a book club ( for obvious, flammable reasons ) but… something.