~~~sinking~~~

I’m thankful for every strand of hair on my body, every eyelash and every body hair because I now know what it’s like to live without it.

I am thankful for the ability to touch things and feel because I lived for months without the ability to feel the warmth of my lovers skin against my fingers or the softness of my cat’s fur.

I am thankful that my body has carried me through this hell thus far.

I’ll be thankful for each bite of food I enjoy today because for months I threw up everything I ate, and the chemo made everything taste bitter or rotten.

I am thankful for my support system, the people who carry me through this, who help me even when I’m the being biggest bitch in the world.

Thankful for the tears, because they remind me that I’m human.

Thankful for each breath I take, even when I so desperately just want to disappear.

Thankful for the pain, because it reminds me that I’m alive.

But mainly— I’m just thankful to be alive 🖤

AND Financial Aid

Hello all,

different post than normal.

My beloved cat, Salem, got scared and slipped her harness February 7th, 2023, at roughly 10:30 pm - 11 pm, in Pembroke, NC.

As of June 12th, Salem is still missing. I have updated her pictures here as well.

I have done every possible thing to locate her: shelter checks, drive-arounds, mail-out cards, posters around town, facebook/insta ads, Snapchat, Apartment emails, door-to-door, ground search, luring, etc. If you can think it then I have done it or tried to do it.

It also means that at this time I am struggling financially. Money is already tight and god forbid cost of living stop going up, especially as I live in the south which seems to be on fire recently with a lot of regressive laws and costs. On top of that, if you recall my truck from September that gave out on me, it has begun to again, sapping most of my money and leaving me high-and-dry.

Financially the world sucks and I need surgery soon most likely - this is not the first one, it is the fourth which is well overdue. Does anyone know Murphy's Law? "Anything that can go wrong will." Yeah, well, Murphy can bite me.

I am in a financial abyss, so any and all help is appreciated. Times are hard for everyone, and god this sucks, but I haven't heard back from the other jobs I have been applying too and there is only so long that you can make it on a single job with rent and bills taking everything except a few dollars a month.

GoFundMe

PayPal (preferred method)

Any and all help is appreciated.

I'm just - god I am so tired.

Salem is still gone. I updated some pictures and information on her and my situation at this point.

I has come to the point, 4 months later, where i no longer get contacted about possible sightings - but only scam attempts and some jerk that keeps calling me at midnight/early morning to meow when I pick up.

I am going to go back to posting prompts, but no art reblogs for a while still. This is here though because I am in a financial black hole between everything going on. If the world could just give me a break. Please. Just one.