incomplete list of things my abuser did to me (that i can remember) over the span of thirteen years in no particular order
-verbally and emotionally abused me for the entire time she was in my life
-slammed my arm in the garage door so hard it left bruises
-repeatedly shoved/slammed me into walls and cabinets because i accidentally brushed against her
-verbally expressed multiple times that she was perfectly okay with letting me starve
-forced me to eat cereal that i had gagged up off of the floor, i was seven
-repeatedly told me to kill myself (i was nine the first time)
-stole my personal belongings (clothes i had that she didnt like, transtape, binders, etc)
-repeatedly threatened to kick me out of the house (starting when i was around ten)
-beat me semi-regularly from the ages of around five to ten (she stopped when my middle school called child protective services)
-hit me in the face with a belt once (buckle side)
-punished me by taking away my bed, would have to sleep on the floor with one sheet for weeks
-made me get dressed in the hallway every morning for years (would have to strip to my underwear in full view of anyone walking by), starting when i was in elementary school
-once she beat me and then forced me to clean her bathroom with my shirt, i was in third grade?? i think
-constantly sexualized me, the first time i was about five or six years old
-isolated me for my entire childhood
-would try to touch/poke at me when she was yelling at me and would get upset when i pushed her hands away, usually resulted in getting my hands slapped or my hair pulled
-dragged me around by my hair a few times
-would abuse me (verbally or physically) and then would victimize herself to other people
-tried to convince me that i was schizophrenic / had a warped perception of reality for years and said that i could not trust my own thoughts and emotions
-she would stay in incredibly close contact with my teachers for no particular reason and would email them at least every other week to try to see if she had a reason to punish me (now that i think about it, my teachers probably knew i was being abused)
-came to my fourth grade classroom and yelled at me and hit me in front of all of my classmates
-made me sit in a booster carseat after i outgrew it in order to humiliate me
-once she made me carry these big hexagonal glass shelves from a cabinet to the trash and when the glass cut both of my palms open she did not care and made me keep working
-made me stand outside in my pajamas and no shoes in the middle of winter on multiple occasions
-tried to convince my dad to send me to boarding or military school because i "needed discipline" and she didnt want to deal with me anymore
-threatened to kill herself in front of me a couple of times
-also threatened to call the police on me often and would come up with hypothetical reasons to get me, a child, arrested. they were all blatant lies and wild overexaggerations
-was extremely transphobic to me (said i was "confused" and that even if i got gender reassignment surgery i would still never be a man)
-tried to convince people that i beat her
-made fun of my self-harm and said that i only did it for attention
-tried to convince my dad to get rid of me
-made me scrub the floors and toilet with bleach and my toothbrush once. would not let me get a new one afterwards.
-made me pick up dog shit with my bare hands and threatened to make me eat it if i didnt clean fast enough
-banned me from leaving the house multiple times, i could not go outside at all
- had to live in other people's homes for a few weeks a couple of times because my dad tried to break up with her and it was unsafe for me to be in her vicinity (first time was for about three weeks in 2021, stayed with a family friend and then with a cousin, second time was 2025, stayed with my boyfriend for a week)
-made me move my bedroom from upstairs to downstairs because she didnt want to sleep in the room next to mine
-constantly compared me to her daughter, who is eleven years older than me
-would constantly search my room, phone, and school computer for something to punish me for, went on for about five years
