things I need to hear

Also, look to see what unmet need you're trying to fill with whatever it is. (There almost always is at least one.) Are you bored? Lonely? Looking for meaning and purpose in your life? Dealing with unresolved pain from your childhood? If you're bored and lacking in mental stimulation, there are lots of ways to fix that. Go to the library and check out a new book. See if there's a guest lecture at a local college or university that's open to the public, on a topic you may be interested in. Go someplace you've never been before (or haven't been to in a while). Take a class. If you're lonely, find ways to meet and connect with people. (Preferably in the offline world, but if virtual is all you are able to do, then work with what you've got.) Join an intramural volleyball team. Volunteer. Find a support group. Join a band or chorus. Join a book club. Your community doesn't have a club for something you're interested in? Start one!

you really do turn thirty and everything is different and sometimes better. if you're in line for thirty stay in line bro

Might fuck around and start believing I am worthy of all the things i desire.

I promise you things will get so much better when you start processing people’s behavior as information rather than a verdict on your self-worth. If someone doesn’t text back, suddenly pulls away, whatever it may be, the solution isn’t to put on a tap dance for them and try to regain their approval. It’s not to crash out on them and try to force them to react a certain way. It’s just to take a step back, take a deep breath, and assess what this tells you. What’s this saying about them? What’s this saying about you??

you literally have to unironically listen to some shit like party rock anthem so you don’t kill yourself