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thinking bout the nin concert and being inches away from mr reznor during hurt and closer. nine inches even

im really enjoying the vampire lestat show. might even have to finish the book about it

trying to make ketamine work for me re: the acute pain of withdrawal (dissociative as pain reliever) but intranasal is making me gag and heave (because im in wd) and shooting up is too intense and too quick sooo idk if this is possible. maybe i can power through the puking idk

every time i run out and go into withdrawals im like damn i really should just get on methadone or suboxone. but i found an addiction treatment center that takes my insurance and so this time im actually going to do it. or at least im going to call them tomorrow.