2024 update: we bought a house, got a new dog, and I just quit my old job and found a new office to work at! Soo many things have changed within ONE YEAR I truly cannot believe of everything we have accomplished together. I am so thankful for my amazing partner in life he’s been the best person thats come into my life and I am entirely blessed to have him and our little family. Tears come to my eyes when I remember myself as being the loneliest girl growing up, left home alone with my laptop and venting my thoughts and feelings into this same empty void. I cried in my bed every night as a teenager because no one understood me and I felt like no one wanted to be around me. I always dwelled on the what-ifs in my life. But now I finally have my person who gives me all the love in the world, who listens to me and notices me and loves me in every way he possibly can. He makes me cry tears of JOY. I am not lonely anymore because I have him and our two boys and we have our own house., which was my ultimate dream that has came true.
Reading my last post makes me laugh because that job was still terrible even two years later. It definitely had its ups sometimes but when it was down, it was down BAD. I found myself wishing that some drama would happen to give me reason to quit then lo and behold some shit actually did lol. I sorta became lost and a little depressed the week after I left because I thought I hated job searching more than being at that office, but Im hopeful that this new office I found works out. I start on Monday. The brighter side is that my partner ALSO found a way better job, so that means less worrying about his commute, our financials, and he’s getting great benefits that’ll work tremendously for our future. We have been extraordinarily blessed these past few years.
I love Beyoncé and there’s a quote from one of her songs that resonates with me every day, Its like my stupid roman empire
“Ive had my ups and downs but I always find the inner strength to pull myself forward. I was served lemons and I made Lemonade”
