-The Queen negotiated clauses in the equality and Diversity Act so she wouldn't have to hire 'coloured or foreign' staff in the palace. that clause is still there today.

-The Queen tried to use The State Poverty Fund to heat Buckingham Palace even with her own personal fortune.

-She lobbied the Scottish Parliament 67 times to ensure that new wildlife protections laws woudn't apply to her estates there.

-The main throne she sits on is worth an estimated £40,000,000,000. Her jewellery Collection worth circa £5,000,000,000 made with 28, 578 diamonds and gemstones, almost all of which were stolen from countries Britain invaded and enslaved...sorry colonised. She also banned the Police from searching her estates for stolen artifacts.

-Her crown estate is one of the largest property owners in the country. It has over 26 Royal residencies, inc 9 palaces that remain mostly empty and property portfolio that generates £300 million per year. Yet she had a family thrown out during the covid eviction ban for a £32 unpaid bill.

Her son is a nonce ( pedophile) that she protected through a £12 million payout.

-The 'free' book that was sent to every school to tell kids how wonderful the queen is cost the taxpayer £12 million.

-She has £420 million personal wealth, which doesn't include that for-mentioned crown estate or her antique furniture or her jewellery collection or all the stolen gold.

-She and her family cost the tax payer £345 million per year in security and other protections.

-The jubilee cost the tax payer £28 million , set aside by the chancellor for the purpose of funding it. Whilst there are currently 14.5 million people living in poverty here in the UK.

- Buckingham Palace banned ethnic minorities from office roles, papers reveal (2021) (the article says that there is no longer a ban as of the 1990s, however the clause is still there to allow a ban.)

- Queen asked for poverty grant to heat palaces (2010)

- Revealed: Queen vetted 67 laws before Scottish parliament could pass them (2021) (It's unknown if any of the laws were amended due to her lobbying, but the lawmakers were required to get her approval.)

- Revealed: police barred from searching Queen's estates for looted artefacts (2021)

- Hampton Court mews row: Couple face eviction 'over £32 bill' (2020) (The tenant was using a communal socket to power his electric car.)

- Prince Andrew settles US civil sex assault case with Virginia Giuffre (2022) Prince Andrew pays settlement ending sex assault case (2022) (Guiffre was 17 at the time of the assault. The settlement was initially estimated at 12-14 million, in which case he probably couldn't have afforded it (without the Queen's help?), but some reports say that it was as little as 3 million by the end. IDK I couldn't find anything firm from a reputable source.)

High Mountain Trail With Storm Rolling In

you stay soft, get eaten

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.