āeveryone is mad at me and they just wonāt tell meā ā> āno one has said anything about being mad at me and i havenāt done anything to warrant being mad at so if someone is silently fuming about me and not saying anything thatās their problem and actually quite weird of them and i can effortlessly move on with my lifeā
this took SUCH a huge deal of unlearning because, like so many of you, i came out of a home where being quietly in trouble WAS the default state, and i DID grow up not just with the assumption but borderline religious conviction that Everyone Is Mad At Me, I Am Bad, I Must Exist In A Constant State of Attempting to Pacify The Natural Rage I Inspire In Everyone. and no it actually turns out that my family are the freaks . and yours are too
āthis isnāt true because i DEFINITELY silently fume at people in the hopes theyāll figure out what they did and apologizeā thatās not good. you shouldnāt do that
āthis isnāt true because the ex-friendship that traumatized me ended explosively after they were mad at me and never told me whyā thatās not good. they shouldnāt be doing that
āi donāt think this is true because my current friend group is constantly icing me out until i figure out what ive done to upset them and properly apologized without being toldā hey thats not good. they should not be doing that
if the peacefulness of your relationship with someone (familial, romantic, friendly, anything) can be destroyed by effective communication/asking them for effective communication, you have got to get out of there. if you canāt get out of there, youāve got to throw away any ideas about what that person thinks of you because they have their own shit to figure out before they can accurately read anyone else
