why are we still here

Hi there, my birbs.

It's been some time, huh. My attempt at coming back here didn't really work out the way I thought it would, or it went exactly as I felt it would go, meaning - I didn't even post once.

To be honest, things were happening, are happening, and hopefully will still be going on. The good kind of things, of course.

I moved out, and have been living with my fiancé for over two years now. It's great.

Oh yeah. I got engaged.

In the meantime, somewhere around almost a year ago, I had a big mental health hiccup and had to get back to regular check-ups and relying on medication to get back to normal.

It's okay now, I am okay. Mostly due to the fact that I finally resigned from my old job and now started a new one, in a new city, with new people. If only I made that decision sooner, but hey. I did it. It's so much better now.

On to the fandomy, internet side of things. I don't know what changed, or switched, or something, but I found myself spending less and less time online, on tumblr, or even youtube most weeks. Even when I tried to make the 'comeback' last time, I felt I was somehow forcing it? So that's probably why it didn't work out.

I don't know if I will ever be able to come back to what it was before. I still think of my art and characters I created fondly, and sometimes I browse through old stuff to get some smiles and memories if I need it.

I even played through Veilguard just to get the finish of the story I waited for so long, and even that didn't manage to rekindle that flame.

I won't be deleting my blog, I'm gonna give myself this opening that if, somehow, someday, I will have a thought of maybe getting back to it, I will still have my memories, art and big chunk of my past still here to see.

Thank you so, so much for being with me, on here, sharing your thoughts, opinions and emotions with me, even if it's been for just one, small moment - I will always greatly appreciate everything this community, this place, you, have given me.

Hope you're doing well,

stay amazing

Love you all,

I think I either got somehow suddenly so old that my brain forgot how to use internet or ??? idk work burnout? stuff in life? but yeah remember how I wanted to come back soon like few months ago

ha ha

Won't fully promise but IF I successfully manage to move out soon (DUDES FINGERS CROSSED) I will try once again to reactivate my art. It's been like millenia since I last drew anything I need to learn it again I feel like

see ya (maybe) in 2024!!!

While I take care of the rest of the work related matters before the summer starts, please consider donating - I am still in process of gathering funds to get a down payment for my first place, and since last year I managed to save only a little.

I decided to jump in here and say hi!!! This whole year was really really busy, and I am still waiting for the summer holidays to actually begin because I work is HELL!

it's been some time since I shared that I am going through bits of depression here and there, got help and got a bit better; but lately we've decided with my doctor it's time to try to get off my medication, and for a few months it seemed to be working.

Not anymore. I gradually got back into my own head and just dealing with realisation that I might need to return to medicating was hard, cause I felt like I did something wrong. Like I failed. But I admitted it and reached out to get myself back on track.

This means I am, once again, in no place to live my life online. Just when I thought I might get back on here for some more time. Hope that you are all doing okay and remember to take care of your mental health however you can.

Love u,

take care