This is seriously and truthfully me.

Random Ramblings: ADHD Edition

Yooooo. Did you miss me, guys? HAHAHAHAHAHA. By popular demand, I am now here to answer questions about my ADHD Diagnosis. But let me just make any disclaimers: (1) I do not support self-diagnosis, please do not claim you have this and that disease until you have sought the guidance of a professional or you really fit the bill, (2) I understand not anyone can afford what I did, I am not forcing…

Random Ramblings: Midyear 2022 Edition

Yo. Long time no post here. So, I passed the bar exams and finally became a lawyer :’) You would think I’d be very happy, right? But no, I’m not. I felt relief for passing, and anxiety for the future. I feel guilty for being ungrateful and feeling this way. I feel like the fishes in Finding Nemo after escaping from the fish tank. “What now?” I have been suffering from what I thought was burnout,…

Random Ramblings: Bar Review Blues

Also known as Law Student Forever (referencing to Young Forever by BTS. Get it?? Get it??! LOL) I know what you might be thinking, I should be reviewing. But who u, are you the one going to take my exam???! Lol kidding. I’m not a mind reader and I know I’m just projecting whatever feelings that I have right now. “Trying to comfort myselfI tell myself the world can’t be perfectI start to let…

Open Letter to my Future Self: Dear future self,I want you to remember that on this day, on the 15th of June 2021, you were able to submit your supervised legal research paper against all odds. You were so scared, you know? You couldn’t write anything, you couldn’t even write a blog post. You were so devastated and frustrated. You were so confused and exhausted. You felt that you were already…

Of Regrets and Anxiety: Close to the Finish Line

So. Supposed to be writing my thesis but here I am writing about my emotions and randomly rambling again. I’m not even sure why I’m able to type this when I can’t even properly hold a conversation with people. Lol. Must be the anonymity. Or the freedom where I just ramble on without anyone stopping me and without judgment. Anyway, so I’m in my final year of law school (hopefully, God, please).…

Random Ramblings: 2020 Edition

Ah. I don’t know what to say. But I just realized this post is called random ramblings edition for a reason. But really, it’s just a recap of my years. I think this is my fifth one? Yeah, this my fifth one. Congratulations for surviving another year, self. Anyway, fck covid, and those responsible for it. Seriously. That encapsulates my whole mood for the year. My 2020 started okay, aside from…

어땠을까 (Dear my friend; Feat. JW of NELL)

via 어땠을까 (Dear my friend; Feat. JW of NELL)

Random Ramblings: 2020 Midyear Edition

We all know how shitty 2020 is so far. Whoever challenged 2020, please stop.

This is mostly just me ranting about life, so feel free not to read. Keep safe. Wear mask. Wash hands. Social distance from people like you do with your problems and reality. K? K.

Ironically, I decided to live properly at the start of 2020 after my attempts last year. Seems like 2020 says “nawp, not on my watch”. Do I…

Suga’s Interlude: My Choice amidst the Confusion

“Why Law?”

That’s what professors would often ask to first year students. I would know because I’ve been a first year student for two years in two different schools respectively. That’s also what they ask in interviews for entrance exams. When they would ask me that I would freeze. I have this bad habit of repressing my true emotions. I would often answer that it’s my dream. It was my dream to be…

Breaking the Cycle: Self-Victimization and Selfishness

I have a lot of issues as pointed out by my counselors, therapists, doctors, friends, just about anyone who has an opinion of me. It’s hard. I always invalidate myself and feelings.

I’m angry? Oh that’s bad, I shouldn’t be angry, they have their own problems. But what about my problem? I’m sad? I know some of my friends are sad and struggling right now.  I shouldn’t be sad, I am blessed. I am…