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Dear Grandpa,I’m ready now to write my last email to you.I’ll forever regret not emailing you one last time. It was almost time for another email. Our last conversation being a month ago—we talked about my new novel. I insisted that I’d be basing Merlin after you to which you politely declined and insisted instead that Merlin was a she instead. We went back and forth until deciding Merlin would…

I just logged my 15th-consecutive day of counting calories. I have to say, I never though that this would work. And yet–it clearly is. I’m down 4.4kg already. It’s made me much more aware of what I am eating and I have definitely stopped eating out. While counting calories is contributing to my success it isn’t all I’ve been doing. Fifteen days of counting calories and switching a slim shake…

Week 2 – Send Chocolate

I’m well into my second week of losing 25kg and already that initial “I can do this” high is wearing off. I just miss sugar. I’m told that it gets easier once it’s out of your system. But geez, that stuff is a drug!! Husband is supporting me by not buying me snacks anymore. Finally. It took ages of me asking him to stop. My friends are being awesome and cheering me on. I think it’s just tough…

Body mass index, or BMI, is dumb. It’s a dumb way to decide health. But here we are. I’m aiming to reach a BMI of 30 in 10-12 weeks. That’s about 20kg to go. Will it be difficult? Yes. Will it be worth it? Also, yes! The IVF clinic says I can’t begin until I’m at BMI 30 and so that is what we shall do. I have managed to drop one BMI in the last 4 days by watching my sugar intake, my…

The meeting with the clinic doctor went well enough. But ’tis as I expected. I need to lose weight to meet the requirements in Japan for IVF assistance. Before we can do anything, I’ll need to lose approximately 25 kg (55 lbs). That’s no small chunk of weight. So, I need a plan and I need help. A little support too. I’m aiming for 1kg a week, which means a September IVF start (boo)…but it’ll…

Well, things are on a roll. Tomorrow at 10 am, partner and I have a 10-minute meet session with a clinic doctor to find out if their clinic is the right fit and ask our questions. There are three clinics in total that we’re interviewing. I think the fact that we have this appointment makes it feel more real–like something is actually starting. I think the IVF route will be more enjoyable than…

I think I’ll use this space as a small journal for my IVF adventure. With my husband being asexual, we’ve not had any success conceiving via other means yet. We’ve been trying for the last year by monitoring my BBT and ovulation with OTC kits and then using plastic syringes to inseminate monthly. Romantic, I know. But to no avail. I’m 36 this year and we would like a child. So it’s time for IVF.…