get it. self a were

i just wish being otherkin didnt feel so isolating lol

kind of hard to find adults in the community and i dont wanna be hanging out with teenagers for one, expressing myself irl is nigh impossible, finding people with my specific kintype is kind of hard as-is but the chance of me getting along with them is even lower, and then seeking out community is also kind of difficult due to the amount of discourse AND the fact discord servers are known to be like. ESPECIALLY toxic and awful . i feel nervous talking about it to people who i know love and accept me, or on any of my blogs, and its also nervewracking even just interacting with any otherkin stuff on platforms that ARENT tumblr in the off chance someone sees it and decides to bully me into a fine powder. like. fuck man

I guess I just kind of have to get over myself a bit but it's scaryyyy

i just wish being otherkin didnt feel so isolating lol

kind of hard to find adults in the community and i dont wanna be hanging out with teenagers for one, expressing myself irl is nigh impossible, finding people with my specific kintype is kind of hard as-is but the chance of me getting along with them is even lower, and then seeking out community is also kind of difficult due to the amount of discourse AND the fact discord servers are known to be like. ESPECIALLY toxic and awful . i feel nervous talking about it to people who i know love and accept me, or on any of my blogs, and its also nervewracking even just interacting with any otherkin stuff on platforms that ARENT tumblr in the off chance someone sees it and decides to bully me into a fine powder. like. fuck man

otherkin stuff is a really strange thing to experience for me specifically tbh

i know ive talked about it ad nauseum on here its just so???? odd???? like i have NEVER been a spiritual person at all but it almost feels spiritual and its like kind of realitybreaking for me. like my brain doesnt want to accept it at all but my heart feels it and i like it and its nice.

i guess i just figured it would've sort of tapered off by now and that i was purely having some kind of mild psychotic episode. i think that may have been an influence still because god knows i was breathing in a fuckton of mold where i used to live and was also like under extreme duress All Of The Time and ive been known to experience mild psychosis symptoms when under extreme duress. but it's almost been a year since my awakening or whatever you wanna call it and im generally pretty happy and comfortable and havent been hallucinating at all or thinking or doing weird shit but im still here. doing this. feeling this way. acting this way. getting euphoria from sharpening my claws and wearing tails and bones and listening to folk music and eating suspiciously undercooked meat and so on. like. okay man

otherkin stuff is a really strange thing to experience for me specifically tbh

i know ive talked about it ad nauseum on here its just so???? odd???? like i have NEVER been a spiritual person at all but it almost feels spiritual and its like kind of realitybreaking for me. like my brain doesnt want to accept it at all but my heart feels it and i like it and its nice.

yknow i liked wolves and werewolves growing up kinda but i was never like, INTO them, you know? i wasnt a Wolf Kid or a Werewolf Kid and i wasnt into twilight or anything like that. like, at most i read a couple wolf books by the same author of guardians of ga'hoole i believe when i was like, 10 or 11. and they were hardly impactful. i cant even really remember what they were about fully. in fact, i kind of grew averse to them as a whole for a while. not in that i actually Disliked them, i just saw it as i guess like. a boring animal to be really into since EVERYBODY likes wolves. especially the weird annoying rednecks i grew up around. so this does kind of feel like the universe is laughing at me a bit

especially since i feel like its the most common therio/kintype to have. pretty funny. like dude. Come on. at least im a /were/wolf specifically and not just a wolf but i obviously resonate with regular wolves and canines to a Degree

i guess as a kid i did roleplay as a werewolf specifically pretty often because i had a friend who (funnily) was very into twilight and tried convincing me we were both werewolves for real. i wonder if i'd be like that now if it weren't for her. but idk. even before i met her i've always loved the idea of being a werewolf. sooo much. despite never really consuming any werewolf media or having any werewolf media resonate with me. like at MOST i like an american werewolf in london i guess? and running around in skyrim and killing people as one? AAWIL isn't something i was ever obsessed with though, and the skyrim stuff is just. well. you know. i like being a werewolf . for obvious reasons. and for the longest time id howl for fun when nobody could hear me and pretend i was hunting livestock when i lived by a farm . this kind of feels like looking back and wondering why i didnt realize i was transgender sooner like this is the same emotion

yknow i liked wolves and werewolves growing up kinda but i was never like, INTO them, you know? i wasnt a Wolf Kid or a Werewolf Kid and i wasnt into twilight or anything like that. like, at most i read a couple wolf books by the same author of guardians of ga'hoole i believe when i was like, 10 or 11. and they were hardly impactful. i cant even really remember what they were about fully. in fact, i kind of grew averse to them as a whole for a while. not in that i actually Disliked them, i just saw it as i guess like. a boring animal to be really into since EVERYBODY likes wolves. especially the weird annoying rednecks i grew up around. so this does kind of feel like the universe is laughing at me a bit

especially since i feel like its the most common therio/kintype to have. pretty funny. like dude. Come on. at least im a /were/wolf specifically and not just a wolf but i obviously resonate with regular wolves and canines to a Degree