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A Bi Aesthetic, for those who need a reminder to be brave.

About Me:

Sabrina Elise Gallien

August 29, 1996

Virgo Sun, Pisces Moon, Aquarius Rising

Cancer Mars/Venus, Libra Mercury

ENFP

Chaotic Good

Melancholic

Hazel

Type 4

The Creator

For my alpha, Theresa.

As is common on nights when I stay up too late reading, I find myself in awe of how I’ve lived my life up until this point, and how I want to go forward with it in the future. I’m not ashamed to say that I have made some rather shady decisions, and as cliché as it sounds I find it is all the things I decided not to do that hurt me the most; all the poems I’ve left unwritten, all the days I prioritized mundane things over things that could have been worthwhile - or even merely in my best interest. Why do we do that? Why as human beings do we put off the things we truly want or love when they’re right in front of us?

I’ve decided it’s fear. I’m so terrified every day of my life. It’s more than perfectionism that keeps me from turning in my essays for class, or even just from writing whatever verse comes to my head late in the evening. I’m constantly waiting, in fear that once I do something concrete, I’m going to screw it up, and that in the end that’s legacy I’m going to leave on this planet. 

We live in a society thats so driven by how the world perceives us that we’ve become agoraphobic, refusing to step out of our comfort zones in favor of lives that are far to tame to be proud of. That’s not to downplay every day heroes: mothers who stay home every day to care for their children, the guy who hands you your coffee at Starbucks every morning with a smiley face on your cup. They have just as much worth as any over glorified celebrity or historical figure. But what I’m saying is that it’s important to wake up every day and be proud of the life you’re living. If you died tonight would you be proud of what you’ve done? Would you believe you had done something good or worthwhile? Is there enough happiness in your years, whether they be 10 or 100, that you could look back and say “I did everything I could have”? 

Because that’s the kind of life I want to be living.

I’m not saying every day is going to be your shot at the Olympics, or the day you meet the love of your life, but I’m not saying it can’t be. Every second your breathing is another shot at getting what you’ve always wanted, being who you’ve always imagined, making your way in this terrifying world where everything is uncertain.

You don’t have to have any sort of faith or belief in miracles to start making them happen for yourself. And if I do happen to reach someone out there, someone who feels like today wasn’t worth living, all I have to say is this:

I was built bigger on the inside, Every bit of me pushing outward - Feelings beat out of my body Like waves crashing on the shore; I’d flood the streets.

I medicate myself for others Because God forbid I say what’s inside. I’m a mess of opinions And I’m never wrong, Except about you, and him, and maybe myself.”