marts;

Up late thinking about things I shouldn’t be thinking about

slowly becoming more disabled by chronic illness and communicating with people is like. no i’m sorry i don’t remember your birthday but i think i still know your favorite color. blue, right? no? thank you for lending me this book, but i don’t think i can finish it before you’d want it back. you said something to me, and i don’t know what it was but it was important. i didn’t do that thing i said i’d do for you. i know i asked this before. i forgot your name but i swear you’re an important part of my life. give me a minute, i don’t understand what you’re saying. i know that was a really big thing but remind me of what we’re talking about again? i’m sorry i left you on delivered for two and a half months, i love you. i forgot the promise we made when we were kids. i don’t remember why you’re mad at me. i don’t understand i’m sorry