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I’M SORRY IF YOU FEEL SOMETHING.

I saw you staring out of your own abyss again.

waiting for something you’re not sure even still exists?

don’t be afraid to wonder, don’t be afraid to be scared.

so I apologize if you feel something.

but love is all we got.

if I steal something, remember it was mine.

MANTRA.

do you wanna start a cult with me?

I’m not vibrating like I oughta be, I need a purpose.

I can’t keep surfing through this existential misery.

but if I choose my words carefully… think I could fool you that I’m the guru.

wait, how do you spell “epiphany”?

before the truth will set you free, it’ll set you off.

you’re gonna lose the plot.

too late to tell you now, one ear and right out the other one.

cause all you ever do is chant the same old mantra.

could I have your attention, please?

it’s time to tap into your tragedy.

think you could use a new abuser.

but now you’re sinking, what were you thinking?

and I know this doesn’t make a lot of sense…

but do you really wanna think all by yourself now?

all I’m asking for is a little bit of faith.

NIHILIST BLUES.

I’ve been climbing up the walls to escape the sinking feeling.

but I can’t hide from the nihilist at my door.

it blossomed wit all the heart of a cold war.

I’m a spirit in a tomb.

do you mind if I’m exhumed?

i’m the ashes in the plume, I’m the beggar in the ruin.

I’m peaking out, I’m burning up, I’m shooting through.

I’m only lonely for the truth.

paradise is in my soul, and I’m terrified I can’t get out.

I’m lost in a labyrinth.

we’re all lost in a labyrinth.

please, don’t follow.

sinking to the floor, I sink to the floor.

you were in my dream last night, but your face as someone else’s.

you march in the dark, little lamb to the slaughter.

WONDERFUL LIFE.

Yeah, okay, no it’s, that’s fine.

I read a fun fact about the brain and how it starts to deteriorate when we get to 27 or whereabouts.

makes me sad, but if forgotten what I’m on about.

and you can’t sit there unless you’re righteous.

I wear a happy face like I’m ed gein.

I feel all numb now, is that a feeling?

I wanna waste away.

alone, getting high on a Saturday night.

I’m on the edge of a knife.

nobody cares if I’m dead or alive, oh, what a wonderful life.

oi, debbie downer, what’s your problem?

don’t wanna be here, still, call shotgun.

this is not a drill, no, this is the real world.

domesticated, still a little feral.

and it’s all gone wrong.

and one day this might hurt me less.

but everybody knows I’m still down.

and hell yeah, I’m the awkwardest.

OUCH.

I always knew this is gonna end in tears.

didn’t think your wrists would keep a souvenir?

and I thought that I had heard it all…

I know I said I was under your spell, but your hex is on another level.

and I know you could drag me through hell…

but I hoped you wouldn’t fuck the devil.

MEDICINE.

some people are a lot like clouds, you know? life’s so much brighter when they go.

you rained on my heart for far too long.

couldn’t see the thunder for the storm.

cause I cut my teeth and bit my tongue till my mouth was dripping blood.

but I never dished the dirt, just held my breath while you dragged me through the mud.

I don’t know why I tried to save you ‘cause I can’t save you from yourself.

when all you give a shit about is everybody else.

and you just can’t quit, why don’t you deal with it?

I think it’s time to stop.

you need a taste of your own medicine, cause I’m sick to death of swallowing.

watch me take the wheel like you, not feel like you.

act like nothing’s real likfe you.

so I’m sorry for this, it might sting a bit.

and I spent too long in a place I don’t belong.

but you won’t admit, why don’t you get a grip?

cause you can’t keep going on and on and on and on like this.

SUGAR HONEY ICE & TEA.

I think we’re too close for comfort.

so no, don’t rock the boat and don’t calm the storm.

god already gave you his answer.

blink, I’m sorry, it’s over.

the whistle’s been blow.

I’m breaking up.

leave a message after the tone.

cause it’s got my head running twenty-four seven.

I don’t know if I can figure it out, it’s all messed up.

only one thing I know for sure, we’re all so full of sugar, honey, ice and tea.

don’t move a muscle, no, we can’t have a struggle.

but the “situation is in control”, so play pretend that it’s all good.

you could tell the messiah that his pants are on fire.

I politely decline, I gotta go.

gotta stick my head in the sand and block out all the sadness.

and we all march on like we know the way to heaven.

who the hell died and made you the king?

we don’t know what we want, but we know that we want it.

WHY YOU GOTTA KICK ME WHEN I’M DOWN?

I see you, you on the edge of your seat.

ain’t you got someplace to be?

was hoping the suspense would kill you.

tell me, how would you begin?

watching and waiting to sink your teeth in.

come on and give me your expert opinion, ah- fuck it.

I settle down in a dump, heard a crown screaming “jump”.

they always wanna kick you when you’re down.

what the fuck have I done?

we just want your blood, you know we like you better im limbo.

so come on a take a shot, you just can’t get enough.

don’t let the fact you know nothing stop you from talking now.

‘cause when all is said and done, my name’s still on your tongue.

but tell me, why you gotta kick me when I’m down?

you better pray I don’t get up this time around.

and why you trynna put me in the ground?

don’t you know I’m a seed? I won’t stop at the roof.

go ahead, bury me; this is how I grow, it’s how I thrive.

yeah, I know it’s all in good fun, but don’t say it’s coming from love.

what doesn’t kill me, well, it better run like hell!

remember this line that you crossed.

know there’s no turning back now.

oh god, what the fuck have you done?

I loved you like daughters, I loved you like sons.

FRESH BRUISES.

don’t try to fuck with me, don’t you hide your love.

MOTHER TONGUE.

I didn’t see it coming.

but I never had much faith in the universe’s magic.

till it pulled to that time and place.

and I’ll never forget.

when the floodgates opened, we cried an ocean.

it still has me chocking; it’s hard to explain.

I know you know me, you don’t have to show me.

I feel you’re lonely, no need to explain.

so don’t say you love me.

just let your heart speak up, and I’ll know.

no amount of words could ever find a way to make sense of this.

so I wanna hear your mother tongue.

and yeah, I could but punching.

but I always tend to fluctuate.

and I feel sick that I’m buzzing, oh love, I’m in trouble.

I’m sorry, but you got me gushing all over the place.

but I think we’re chosen like our gates were woven.

and all of those bad choices were left turns on the way.

HEAVY METAL.

just minding my own meltdown.

it was then I heard the cannibals.

you got that something special, it’s now or never.

you wanna live forever?

you know what we want, you should give it to us.

it’s now or never, but there’s no pressure.

I tried to do a headcount but I cut off al the crusts

then they gut me like an animal.

I’m afraid you don’t love me anymore.

got my heart and my head all in the wars.

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

I’ll see you at the gates when it gets dark.

kill the angels if they’re keeping guard.

how do I start when you don’t know what to say?

no, I don’t know what to say.

you said the world’s already full enough of defeated people and you would not be one.

always a choice to move yourself along and find a better way.

and I hope that’s where you are.

I saw the universe hidden in your heart, wish I told you this before it got too dark.

I can die, but I can’t break.