Lately I’ve been kinda lowkey training my bladder to hold more for longer periods of time. Not bladder bursting amounts but, challenging amounts. Holding a bit beyond mild discomfort, pushing myself just a little further than what’s normally comfortable you know? Skipping those just-in-case pees, because if I really needed it, my bladder would let me know. It’d be full and present and demanding to be emptied, not these tiny little twinges I can easily ignore, right?
My rough mental goal I aim for is about 4 pees a day - morning, lunch, evening, and before bed - but if I’m truly desperate/uncomfortable I won’t force myself to stick to it. But I do have to NEED to pee to justify using it.
As a result, this light training has made for a couple of fun scenarios from the past week or two of doing this:
Feeling a brief pang before a movie and deciding to skip the toilet because it’s not that bad, I can hold it. I was squirming by the end with a hand subtly squeezed between my thighs under my pyjama pants, and I had to dash as soon as the credits rolled, but I held it all in and was dry by the end.
Wondering if I should go pee before starting a gaming session before shrugging it off, I should be fine. Ignoring as I start to swing my foot side to side, pressing my thighs together as the pressure mounts. Promising I’ll go after one more mission, again and again until I’m forced to pause because I can’t focus anymore, jamming a hand against my crotch to give myself a squeeze before scurrying to the bathroom
Promising myself to go pee once my lunch break started in an hour, trying to focus on work as I felt my bladder steadily filling more and more. Subtly bouncing and twitching my foot and then crossing my legs and squeezing so tightly cause fuck I need to go, before having to rush to the loo five minutes before I promised cause I was literally going to leak right in the middle of the open plan office with someone sat right behind me
Not taking my morning pee before going to the gym, cause it’s only a 25 minute walk, surely I can hold it in that long? Sure, I was crossing my legs at every stop light and nearly leaked in my boxers when I saw the toilet, but I made it
Sitting on a discord call with all my colleagues chatting and laughing as I try to finish my work for the day, and slowly getting quieter and quieter as my desperation builds. Trying to be subtle as I unbuckle my belt and lower my zip to ease the pressure, grinding myself into my heel to hold on just a bit longer cause fuck I really do have to go but I just need to do this one last thing. Scrambling through a rushed goodbye before hanging up, leaning back and gasping cause fuck I’m so full, stumbling to the toilet to finally let loose
It’s been a lot of fun teasing myself in this light hearted way and I’ve noticed a couple changes in my peeing routines too. My bladder seems to almost expect to be ignored now, so my lighter initial warning signs are barely noticeable. Instead, I only notice I really need to go at the medium stage, when I get the first wave of Oh You Really Should Go Pee Now (as it should be). That first real pulse in your bladder, that wave of pressure against your pee hole. I’m learning to breathe through these waves of pressure and continue with what I’m doing, having faith in my muscles to hold on. It’s only a false alarm after all, we know we can hold for at least a bit longer past this point without breaking a sweat. It’s fun to feel my bladder learning its place, that just because it Wants to pee doesn’t mean it Needs to pee yet.
Whenever I do allow myself to go pee, my pees are consistently forceful now. Not every one of them is a 40 second gusher, but every single one is loud and forceful and you can hear how much I needed it with the volume at which it hits the bowl 😳 (it’s a little embarrassing but uh, I like it). I’ve even found my bladder bulge to be more present on a daily basis. Obviously, none of them are like the impressive leaky bulges I get when I’m pushed to my absolute limits, but I really enjoy stroking and pressing lightly on these mid tier bladder bulges. They’re not rock hard and bulging, but they’re soft with a bit of firmness to them, the beginnings of a stretching ball of piss gradually filling me up.
Overall, I just like seeing and feeling my bladder being more visible in my life, feeling fuller more frequently.
