There is nothing left to say.

I feel so emotionally, physically, and mentally drained...

I've been in this damn hospital for 6 hours.... God damn it. I can't even imagine what it's going to be like for her stuck in here for at least 3 days.... Fuck fuck fuck.

I'm not even going to get to see her before they check her in to inpatient.....

My sister hates me now, I know it… We were finally getting closer and now she hates me…. God fucking damn it….

No... Fuck.. Fuck... FUCK! This can not be happening... Why now... Why did you have to get to this point... I tried so hard to stop you... Yet you still fell into the same pit of hell that I did....

I'll be a year clean in less than two weeks.... but I've been so close to breaking the past week and a half.... I don't have any of the people that I used to have before that helped me when things got to the point that I felt like I couldn't handle them... I haven't been this bad in awhile.. there is just to many emotions and feelings happening in a limited amount of time... I almost can't handle them all.. and now school is starting on Monday which is going to give me even more to deal with.... god dammit someone help me.....