Safe Haven

Not much has been going on Dx just waiting for appointments. Been doing a little paint by number thing to help with the boredom. Got new glasses. And FINALLY got new patient papers for a gp and turned those in. Just gott wait for the new patient check thing

Hamish and I had a lovely day yesterday <3 went to a park to have a little picnic, played dead island 2 and then went out for our anniversary dinner. Basic but a really nice day. We were gonna go away for the weekend but we have hair appointments today that I didn't wanna reschedule or miss Dx now just to chop a foot off my hair and get bangs again!

I want to find a hobby that's not gaming so bad ;-; but then I have free time and I just game anyways ;-;

Well this week has been semi productive. I have a hair cut soon, where I'm going to donate just over a foot of my hair. Also made an eye appointment since its been 5 years since I've done that. Tried to see about opening me a bank account...that's been...less than fun. And been working on updating my resume to apply to jobs ^.^ no idea what I want to do lol. But we also decided once I'm settled into something I might go back to school to do early childhood development/ teaching ^.^

Its...so weird seeing the things happening in the states from here and the discourse happening and getting worse every year 😳 I've been so disconnected knowing for the last couple years I'll be moving here that I hadn't paid too much attention but its... very sad watching the direction everything's going :(

Had a lovely day put with hamish <3 went down to Carlisle to watch the new Avatar movie and had a nice dinner together ^.^

I wish I could like. Accurately take a picture of this but hamish and I live in the country with his parents and it is just POURING down rain. But the like...cute little spinkle raindrops not the big boi drops xD but it's also sunny out so it is just the most beautiful scene of everything glistening and their being sky glitter everywhere and I'm sitting down looking out the window with home made potato soup that hamishs step dad made and man....I am just...so happy... so much happier than I've been and so free of anxiety in this moment and I've always been sure of my life decisions. I don't really see a point in holding onto regret through life but.. I'm SO SURE about the decisions that led me here today

It's always so crazy/funny to me that like...back in the states I almost NEVER dreamed and when I did they were like...super mundane just me living my life dreams and then when I'm in Scotland I have the most off the fricken walls wake up and go what the heck dreams xD last night I had a dream that I got kidnapped by the iron man suit cuz it needed someone to pilot it and took me along on spy missions. 🕵️‍♀️ and that's probably one of my more tame dreams since I've been here xD

BRP secured! Now to get a few appointments in still and need to figure out what I want to do job wise x.x

Still have a cold x.x blocked noses really are the worst. I feel so bad cuz I want to be like...doing stuff around the house or at least tidying up our room more I just have 0 energy. It doesn't help that on top of sinus pressure I have have intense jaw pain rn from an inflamed wisdom tooth ;-; headaches galore.