Those multiple breakdowns, mind becoming a place you have to struggle your way through, anxiety, fears you can't shake off, questioning your own self.. each of this is pushing you to evolve, to change. At some point it will become so unbearable that you would have no choice but to change. To get better. And then you would have another choice to keep carrying on or letting yourself slip back. Keep choosing yourself, trust your best parts and don't judge yourself by your worst ones. You can always heal. Then there would come a day when you would marvel the fact that you made it through and would not be able to imagine the hell that you used to live once upon a time. So make yourself proud. If you are pushed to evolve, take that road and don't look back, except only to see how far you have come.
