good question idk.

why couldn’t i get a useful type of autism instead i got “obsessed with the dc metro” autism

It's not our fault. It's just. It's the DC Metro. It's a very good mass transit system and the vibes are also immaculate. The stations are the peak of like...caring brutalism. They're so practical but the intent is obvious. High vaulted ceilings of unpainted concrete like cathedrals where people worship by moving along. They honor this place by leaving it. Those little cutouts in the concrete. A human being designed those places for other human beings with care. Yet they're so clearly not to be lived in. You are not supposed to be here. You are right where you need to be. You're always a stranger in those stations. You're always right at home in them.