Sean

Imagine finding the love of your life

I am sleeping with my light on again. I let the TV play in my living room. I have not made dinner in three weeks. I have done four loads of laundry. Yes, I am seeing you everywhere. My plant is leaning towards the window, towards the sun, where everything is warm and right. I want to fly out of the window with it. I want to learn how to be a person again. My mother tells me my heart is beating, I am here, I will be okay. I don’t know how to tell her the truth. I don’t know how to tell her my hands are cracked. The skin on my eyelids bright pink. I see the sunset and think of nothing. Snow is falling for the first time today and you should have been there. You should have seen it.

"You do this, you do.  You take the things you love and tear them apart or you pin them down with your body and pretend they're yours" - Richard Silken, A Primer for the Small Weird Loves

"in a dream i don't tell anyone, you put your head on my lap," , "i don't tell anyone about this small, good moment that i wished for because im embarassed by its tenderness and impossibility" <- i'm violently sick