~My recent struggle, with alcoholism~
When a new day, contains new excuses to drink.
When the sale price, looks irresistible.
When escapism isn't the easy way out, that people claim it to be.
Addiction, doesn't always mean withdrawing.
Imagine starting everyday feeling in control, but ending it feeling controlled.
Using multiple substances simultaneously, truly can add insult to injury.
Some of our addictions we're more sceptical of, but others can feel more automated.
So many things, trigger reminders.
So many time frames, become blurry.
Sometimes, selective memory is worthwhile.
Our evaluations, evolve over time.
We fear burning out, our sense of balance.
Patterns, pretend not to be patterns.
Spirals send invitations, to domino affects.
You start trippling, the double strengths.
Your own backyard, became your beer garden.
Forgetting the emotions, from the night before.
You trust your own gambles, recklessly.
You became irrational, with decision making.
The obsessions of filling a void.
When the drink, rearranges your week.
When the bubbles, flatten your charisma.
When they miss your stumbling.
The tragic mystery of numbness.
It's like rebelling against confusion.
Showing up, but with pure distrust.
Hearing hypocritical instabilities, in their laughs.
When the dentist, observes the drug damage.
Being the only open book, on the table.
Differentiating the affects, from the individual.
Praying that time, has your best interest.
Glancing towards better ideas.
What if, glitches are natural?
It's actually so easy, to be scared of humanity.
Rebellion is not usually, intentionally rude.
We need the wisdom, to check in.
When love makes life, like the joker.
Temptations, can feel passive aggressive.
We are collectors of updating information.
The need to witness, spontaneous kindness.
Surround yourselves, with opportunities.
Life's too short, to not have breathers.
Avoid absorbing their perceptions.
Judgements, have a way of lingering.
I don't want to be drunk, off my own nightmares.
Our shoes, occasionally slip on our paths.
Value the privacy, to be able to reflect.
We move forward, manualising gears.
Don't be jealous of dreams, that aren't your own.
Don't let your ego rush you.
Pausing, as a form of being neutral.
Lifestyles, are open to interpretation.
Your problems move with you, but often your resources can too.
If your life was a guidebook, what would it say?
Ignorance, is an overindulgence.
Growth areas, can frequently fluctuate.
Sobriety doesn't always feel like, picking up from where you left off.
Healthy addictions can be tragic too.
Secret addictions, are a scary concept.
Did I schedule in, my own cancel culture?
Terms and conditions, can feel institutionalised.
Loud crowds can be as boring, as boring ones.
Commenting, should feel thoughtful.
Your words can carry so many different symbols, intentions and interpretations.
You get told to apologise for your drinking, to the people who caused lifelong traumas.
Your standards, are the ones you try with.
The victim didn't ask, to be such label.
We fight their lack of understandings.
Shaping, can require creativity.
A change of scenery, is generally underrated.
We fast forward, to latch onto a sense of clarity.
Health is a sign, to look out for.
Scepticism, can look trendy.
Accountability becomes a frequent debate.
Rewards can be healthy ones.
Users are immune, to the concept of a rock bottom. Uneducated onlookers, resist empathy.
Manifestations, remain good plans.
Don't make your wishes, empty ones.
When intoxication, is like a soulmate.
Perhaps it's good to share your goals, but not the precise details?
Generally, effort goes unnoticed.
We each recover and regenerate uniquely.
We crave our sanctuaries.
Surely, there's more productivity to have.
Acknowledgement, can be delayed.
Sometimes advocacy, needs a speakerphone.
Good advice is gentle, yet honest.
Opportunities, lead to practical evolvements.
Simplicity, can feel hidden.
Is success, generally undocumented?
We can be very vague, with our predictions.
Time fillers, can be unfilling fast foods.
When harsh realities, catch up with you.
Confidence, shouldn't need to be boosted.
Challenges, shouldn't need to be amplified.
Existance, is a whole world of interpretations.
Communication, can be a form of creativity.
We underestimate, how authentic we can be.
Scepticism, can uphold you.
Boundaries, don't need any permission.
Sweeteners, don't always feel natural.
Excess time spent, watching one thing burn.
Not every serving, needs seasoning.
Palettes naturally develop.
You can't always resist resilience.
Simultaneous quittings, can help.
Being intuitive, with positive removal.
Internalising enough peacekeeping.
We often outlive our demons.
Forgetting to need substitutions.
Reduction, can feel heavy.
To desire comforts, that aren't temporary.
When gratitude, needs to become the high.
Drinking, can feel like layering.
When simmering, is unconditional.
Focussed words, can change your pathway.
Drug friends, were a form of capitalism.
Feening, was unforgiving and obnoxious.
Burning, can be part of the consistancy.
Not overcompensating, our compassions.
Sometimes adaptability, is spontaneous.
Accepting invitations, that lack intoxication.
Boredom, can become dangerous.
Is stillness, an illusion?
It's safe, to be your own worst critic.
We habitually question our potentials.
Some games, require sharpened focus.
A win, can be unconvincing.
A singular passion in life, is not enough.
If the shoe fits, is it comfortable?
Stability, can be simple and direct.
When enough boldness, gets you through.
Decision making can feel demanding.
Structure, needs both thinking and dreaming.
Shortening, the unwelcomed guest list.
Strengthening energetic alliances.
When adventures, get too distracted.
When rebellion, needs sophistication.
We volunteer, to trial new experiments.
When adventurism, can no longer be.
To perceive temptation, to be materialistic.
To treat moments, as luck.
Giving and seeking help, both require bravery.
Remembering to value safety.
Flowing requires flexibility.
Asking for help, is professional.
The drink, made me feel extra claustrophobic.
Not every lesson, is an obstacle.
Anticipating, a calmer way of life.
What higher standards, do I need to outsource?
Forgive imperfections, they needed to be there.
Is a true gift, unforgotten?
Silence, can be thoughtful closure.
Keeping my head, above the bubbles.
The message, really was in the bottle.
The harsh sound, of glass bottles crashing.
I normalised the term, of a functioning alcoholic.
When more answers, want to connect.
To co exist with aspiring comforts.
A mess can have sharp edges.
Cleaning, seeks the clarity of safety.
The irony, in detailing what to expect.
Pretending to care about their lies.
Solving enough problems, daily.
Needing responsive thoughtfulness.
Needing enough love, to dream.
Groundedness, awaits with patience.
Negative wavelengths, should only flow so far.
Caution, is a process of change.
Going by your own gut development.
The confusion, after completing a hyperfocus.
When life, needs you to find a sanctuary.
When waking up, is the struggle.
One day, I had to look in the mirror differently.
I don't need to overfund another addiction.
When a booster is temporary.
Healing becomes very personal.
Drinking, can shatter your confidence.
Imagine, a crowd sounding bored.
Alcohol, causes many moments of confusion.
The irony in crushed cans and chipped glass.
The drink burns the insides.
Stumbling over steps and feeling cornered out.
Investing in healthier spending.
Your true followers show themselves.
Reach new heights, with various views.
Question, how you serve your existance.
Reward yourself enough, if possible.
Being your own professional star.
Lowering things, that feel overrated.
Being patient enough, to remove demons.
If you live a busy life, you don't need extra stress.
A hangover, won't cure my day ahead.
Brain cells regenerate, with neuroplasticity.
When memory, needs therapy.
When the initial adapting, feels like a workout.
When change, is practicality.
When change, awaits your embrace.
