Fiction says to pull the pin.

I literally hate everything about tumblr. I hate the call out culture. I hate the popularity because it’s so ass backwards it makes no sense. People get popular for their one-liners and aesthetics, like wow, I guess that’s not surprising though since people on this site don’t have a thought process. None that I can see and I’ve seen plenty in the year I’ve been on both these blogs. Oh my god, the people that are popular never keep up with threads either, they just do a day or two of replies then drop the thread and start up a new one. What’s the point? There’s no story or development? How is that fun? Are you people actually writers? I doubt it.

Ah the lack of real life aspects too. I can’t even imagine how people on here handle the real world since they can’t even look at dark themes without crying and cutting themselves. Literally the only reason I get so bothered about being blocked and lectured is because it triggers a split personality that gets me into loads more trouble. It’s so damn inconvenient. I’m getting to the point that I’d rather be in jail than deal with these mindnumbing people. I think there’s maybe just two people on my current followers that I’d describe as such, though that’s a bit of an unfair stretch so I’ll give them the benefit of the doubt. I won’t bother with them since I’m not interested in twisting someone’s arm for replies anymore, but I won’t call them utterly bland and absolute cardboard like some people/most people I’ve met on here. How do you even have friends when you can’t hold a conversation though? Oh right, you’re all jumping at eachother’s popularity and busy doing mindnumbing threads. I’ll never understand the appeal of such shallow crap. 

I’m not talking about the paragraph replies, sure I hate a single paragraph too, but I moreso mean icons and one-liners. Like you can’t even describe what you’re character is doing? You have to use a picture. I’ll never understand. I do like my icons, they’re pretty, but they’re such a pain to use so I usually opt for just writing instead like an actual writer (mindblowing I know. Thank god bdrp is mature enough to not rely on aesthetics for their replies. I’ll have to punch someone if they try that with me like I did for the one-liner I got.) Whoever thought of icons must’ve been lazy as hell, yet it caught on just like the rest of the dumb trends because everyone’s always trying to hide the fact that their writing is crap with aesthetics. That’s not the case for some I’ve noticed, some use aesthetics and actually write well. Makes me wonder why they use them if they’re actually competent writers. The only thing I can think of with aesthetics is that it grabs braindead people’s attention better than words ever will. God knows people can’t read, they proved that to me constantly with disregarding my rules. You’re writers, how can you not read? Oh right, you’re literally stupid. 

I literally have to hold someone’s hand on the other site since god they can’t write, but it’s still more tolerable than the crap on this site. As for why I am still putting up with this nonsensical and idiotic site (oh trigger warning for the snowflakes that can’t handle the word idiotic), it’s because I have friends and threads on here. I have absolutely no interest in branching out to new people. They’ll just be hella disappointing anyway so no point getting my hopes up at all whatsoever. 

As for triggers, no one gives a flying fuck about mine so I’m not going to care about others’. That’s not true, I’ll return in kind for those that do take notice of what makes me uncomfortable. As always, if I’m given kindness I’ll pay it back in kind. If I’m mistreated, I’d much rather find out your trigger and shove it in your face until it finally brings you to your knees. If it weren’t so goddamn obnoxious I would go out of my way to trigger people that disrespect me. It’s also what I’m constantly told that people like that aren’t worth my time so I need to accept that rather than fret and fret and fret. It’s a work in progress but people tend to royally piss me off.

There are two people right now that I’d love to yell at. Tell them off for literally being some of the worst and most fake people I’ve ever seen. There’s nothing I hate more than fake people. Especially fake kindness, pisses me off and that’s exactly what they do. At least it’s not the desire to maim or ruin their lives, just idle snapping. That would cause more unnecessary problems though so only if they contact me first which’ll be hard because I’ve had them blocked since day one. As if I’d want fakes around. They’re so unnerving and uncomfortable.

I booped my cat on the nose yesterday and idly mentioned how I’d snap her neck. Not really of course, it’s just how I show my love, by threatening my loved ones apparently. I punch people’s shoulders to show affection too. Or shove them against things. 

I also lovingly told my dog I’d break his spine today. And then picked him up and hugged him. It’s really not uncommon for me to whisper threats in his ear and have everyone around be like “Bruh wtf.”

And then there’s the idle and playful kys to loved ones (it’s actually a joke on how people on here tell others it so easily so mocking them that ended up turning into endearment for me.) It’s never malicious. I just realize that if I did it to the wrong person they’d take it really serious when it never means that. So I never say it outside of my irl friend group. I don’t wanna upset anyone by them taking me seriously.

I only noticed that normal things like that to me are seen very very hazardously to other people.

I guess I shouldn’t be too surprised that I’m just inherently violent, my mom held my hand over an open flame when I told her I opened the door for a stranger (all while watching criminal minds too. You’d think I’d know better.) And then grandma doused my grandpa in gasoline in his sleep and lit a match. Not only that but also in his sleep, she outlined his head in his pillow with a knife. Suffice to say they got a divorce and lived in separate homes after a while.

Those aren’t terrifying thoughts to me though. Those are very fond memories I have of those two so yeah violence is just normal to me. If I’m ever violent with you, which I typically keep to close friends/ones off the internet, then just tell me not to. It shouldn’t be a problem since I do keep musings and comments like those moreso to myself unless I’m raving mad at someone, in which case it’s still gonna come to me naturally and I won’t think anything of it. But yeah, I’m usually pretty good at censoring that of myself online. I just never thought of how bad people would actually view my typical behaviour until now.

Oh and the looks I get for the kys comments in public. I’d be worried too if I were apparently normal. Then again, me and Vix are writers so we openly talk about murderers, rape, the whole shebang in public and get a lot of weird and worried looks for our out loud plotting. You should see the looks on people’s faces when you’re talking about kidnapping plots out of context. I’m actually surprised no one’s stopped us and confronted us yet. We just get either dirty looks or worried ones.

I’ll never understand the enjoyment of one-liners, icon or iconless. It’s boring and makes me want to disregard them. 

My request said 3-5 paragraphs a reply. They’re nice ooc, but a crap writer. I feel like I’m getting dumber just writing with them honestly. Harsh, but I’m really not having fun when the idea seemed so interesting when we were plotting it out.

So apparently it’s either moderate replies on this hellsite with crap people, or mediocre ones on the other one with nice people. Everyone else I’ve interacted with weren’t bad at least. I wish this person would actually put some effort into their replies though. At least give a paragraph to my two paragraphs. I know I said not to worry about length, but some effort would be nice.