kimiko 🌹

KIMIKO OR ASHLEY <3

your IRL radqueer pzychotic borderline yandere :3

ftm girlboy, she/he/yan X3 NO THEY/THEM OR PRN/PRNS

trying to get into scene and scenecore !!

bodily a minor !!!!! specifically 14 !! mdni blogs fuck off!!

ashley gravez IRL (doublez DNI); mikan tzumiki, toko fukawa, toga himiko, ame-chan, nicole, and ryuuto suzuki fictkin ^__^ also transspecies bunny XD

im alzo erotiqueer, luztqueer, wonderqueer, and PLURqueer LOL

herez my SPACEHEY and TELLONYM!!!

🧿: 🌹,🌼,🧸,🍭,🍬,👂,⛓️,🥚,💧,🩸,🥛,🦿, 📸,💤,👁️,🛐,♀,🌹🌟,🪽🤍,🩹☂️,👏🪄,tranz🍸

❤️: 🔛↔️, ➗👤, 🌶️, 💢, ✔️

soooo i have like. a shit. ton of personality disorders ^__^" like npd and bpd for example but i have,,, way more </3 n e wayz, i always saw lots of posts about ASPD and realized i related to them. i was like oh!! maybe i should look into this!!

aaaand look into it i did XD i looked into the symptoms, but they didnt fit. so i looked into conduct disorder, and didnt fit.

and it was really weird, because internally, i felt like i had ASPD. and i saw all these blogs about ASPD and my heart hurt bcz they were the real ASPD havers. and i felt,, a lot of confusion as to why i felt this way. and it hurt to go through.

i kept questioning myself, i kept wondering why i wanted a disorder so badly; i knew it wasnt "right" to want a disorder. i thought it was "fetishistic," that i was a bad person. and i tried, so hard to repress these thoughts & feelings, but it didnt go away

i kept researching symptoms and how people felt, i even used resources FROM pwASPD, to make sure i really didnt have it, because i know personally thst wanting a disorder sometimes means you have it. but no matter what, no matter how many times i checked and rechecked and researched, i never fit all the symptoms.

theeeen!! i found out about the radqueer community!!

and it was,,, amazing. i saw ppl like me. i saw paraphiles, too!! it wasnt just the transabled folkel like myself that pulled me in, it was that the community was so welcoming.

that was,,, a long time ago!! this isnt my first blog ^__^" ive been struggling with accepting myself for who i am still, but ive known for a while that i was transabled. and honestly?? i feel SO much fking better accepting myself than repressing it & not talking about it.

thats why it honestly makes me RLLY mad that antis are the way they are. even if they realize that we DO actually experience dysphoria, they dont GIVE a fuck. they still think we're cringe, weird, or transphobic.

-mitsubishi

I only made it because i got tired of dainty pure blankqueers from antis side. Its not as "sanitized" as you think /info

If you or a radqueer wants to make a similar term (icky/gross) idrc at all. I hope you have a good day /lh