Let me just come here and rant for a bit because this is one form of social media I can spill my guts and open up without anyone from real life seeing.
I feel like I’ve tried to do everything right and I’m still a fucking failure. I mean I’m fucking 28 and still single and living with my mom. How fucking pathetic is that? Like i was such a fucking over achiever and what do I have to show for it? Nothing but mental health issues. I’ve busted my ass in school, did dual enrollment and graduated high school with my associates degree. Got my bachelors. Currently finishing my masters while working for the state. And with no debit! Like that’s SUCH a big accomplishment and I’m so blessed to be able to do that. And yet that still doesn’t help me get a job where I can live on my own. But I feel so fucking stagnant and have been for years. Like when does the next chapter of my life start? Everyone else my age is already married and has kids and has their life figured out and set up. And all I can find is people who want to fuck me. When it comes to sex, I have so many options. But nobody actually want to get to know me and be with me and build a future with me. Not even just be my friend. And I can’t help but think what is wrong with me? Like why am I always good enough to fuck but not good enough to have feelings for or just be a friend to?
