nothing is worth losing you

Lucifer meeting Sam and saying, "I was dead from the moment we said hello," to play-act and mess with Sam's mind in Jess's form while he also promised to never lie to him. He was dead from the moment they said hello.

Castiel rescued Dean from Hell because Heaven ordered it, Castiel rescued Sam from Hell because he wanted him back. Many things to consider...

sam is actually such a great and complex character and he is a really good male sa survivor representation because everyone around him tones it down to a joke, even though you can clearly see his trauma and more things to it and he’s actually a really good male witch archetype too. Gaahhdamn sam winchester ily

obsessed by how all sam stan posts are either “in this essay i will discuss the ramifications and implications of sam constantly being denied autonomy and how that links to his persistent choice to be kind” or like a pic of sam in the bunker library with the caption “bookslut”

sometimes it's both at the same time

Mary Winchester is always being cut into pieces and rearranged to fit inside some box or another, some role or another, to restore the narrative she disrupted and caused to collapse into itself by just being herself

She’ll often break free and escape into the world from the margins she was previously contained in then be told ‘get back in, this world has no space for you and you’re ruining it for everybody’ and she’ll be like ‘I’m just standing here, being myself’ and be told ‘no, you need to go back where you can again be a mother and a daughter and a long gone memory and a lost home and an idealised image and the driving force for the people who you loved to continue the cycle of violence (that you were attempting to escape in the first place)’ and she’ll be like ‘I can be more than that, I can be myself, I can be it all from here, instead of from the margins, I can occupy real space’ but it doesn’t work that, the world as we know it will stop and break down

the thing abt ruby supernatural that you all forget bc she's hot and evil girlboss slayqueen is that within the extremely abusive hierarchical power structure of demon world she is not the boss of anybody. she is a girlservant. she's an extremely ambitious underling. she is sexually subjugated by astaroth and Alastair and for most of her time on screen she is visibly terrified of being tortured and murdered. she is a religious fanatic hurling herself at martyrdom willing to give anything to the God she's chosen up to and including her literal physical flesh. She has no friends. she is so fucking interesting.