Sasodei

homework + bonuses.. i’m kinda dead, yeah

yes, she was incredibly angry that Adam died but what made her lose her marbles was the fact that Heaven was going to do jackshit about it. She's disgusted by sinners, she hates them and the fact that they took the one person she cared about, its making her furious.

Beyond romance, Lute and Adam had a bond, a very strong bond. They both believed the damn deserved death (it's not an uncommon belief held today). They understood each other. They could say things that no one could say to each other casually. They knew what the other was going to say.

She lost a piece of her soul when he died. He was the only one who truly understood her.

She made a VOW. "If God will not punish sinners...than I WILL."

Lute is playing God.

And she does not respect weakness. Such as Abel. Sinners...who are fearful.

She realized Heaven was "corrupt" in her eyes. That Heaven had lost sight of their true goal which was to punish the sinners and reward the winners. She learned Angels like her were disposable. That she didn't matter to Heaven. Hell, not even Adam mattered.

When she saw flaws in God's judgement, she decided to become judge, jury and executioner.

And she actually did have a point that Sir Pentious got redeemed for attempting to murder another person...

And they built all this complex, interesting shit to account for nothing.

Since I drew Sinner adam and Fallen lute, WHY not add the gurls tooo!! Executioners!! Au where all the Fallen exorcists got reborn as sinners like adam.

No I'm serious, think about it. Adam's death is more about Lute than Adam. His death serves as motivation for her revenge arc. His relationship with her, her romantic longing for him acts as a way to make her more sympathetic and to make her seem (a teensie bit) morally grey. Lute is shaping up to having more character than Adam ever did (sorry Adam fans I still love him tho).

Adam is the Gwen Stacy to Lute's edgy 90s comic book anti hero.

- in these 2 shots in the beginning

It's one of the only times during the song that Lute isn't flying around or breaking anything. She's sort of just standing in one place. And you can immediately tell that she has no idea how to handle herself if she isn't smashing things.

She's a soldier, she's made to kill, to fight, to break stuff, it's how she lets her energy out, even on good days. And when she's already feeling such intense emotions – probably full of adrenaline – and she doesn't have that outlet; she has no idea what to do with herself.

She tries to contain it, to hold still, and you can tell it feels impossible. She looks frustrated. She holds her head and moves her wings. Doing anything that'll allow her to move as much as physically possible while staying in one place.

Then she gives up and gets to breaking stuff.

It's seen again in this sequence. Once she's done slashing the wall and there's nothing else to do, she immediately looks frustrated again. There wasn't anything in direct reach for her to break next, and so she's back to that 'now what' feeling.

Keep in mind that this is also while she's actively trying not to remember how helpless she felt during Adam's death.

So she uses the only thing she has and throws the piece of glass she's holding.

And once she does, then there's REALLY nothing else for her to do, and she instantly spirals.

The second she stops is when her emotions catch up to her.

I think this is why she spends the rest of the songs just going badshit crazy, breaking anything and everything in sight.

It's the only way she knows how to deal with her emotions. If she stops, she has to face it. So she either keeps going until she wears herself out or she stops, and her mind catches up to what happened, and she's left to spiral.

It's not that if she keeps destroying things, it'll bring Adam back or reverse what happened. It's just that as long as she keeps going like this, keeps that adrenaline in her body, she won't have to think about it.

Because the second she's done breaking everything in sight, there's nothing left to do but sit with her thoughts.

....ALSO, can I add that she seems to default to either holding her head or pulling her hair whenever she's feeling frustrated or any sort of intense emotion.

OH MY GOD THE SMILES MIRROR EACH OTHER

I think it's most obviously seen during Hell is Forever.

Throughout the whole song, they keep constantly looking at each other. They're having these silent conversations through glances; like how old married couples can communicate by just looks because they've been with each other for so long.

And it's a mutual thing, Adam turns to look at Lute as much as she does to him, this is clearly something they do often.

They also just naturally back each other up during songs and move in perfect sync to one another. Like that little fist bump? Mid song + while they were moving around, and neither of them hesitated at all. It's just a natural thing.

Another thing, they lean on one another constantly.

Again, midway through a song, Adam just casually rests his arm on Lute. He doesn't even check if she's there first. He knows she'll be right there. She's always beside him, and so there's no hesitation in his movements.

Lute shows no reaction either. There's no shock or 'wtf are you doing' feelings. It's just a thing they do.

Similarly, during You Didn't Know, she'll hang onto Adam's shoulder, and keep in mind in that scene specifically, Lute came up from behind him while doing that. And Adam's just like. Fine with it. This is normal. He isn't startled at all– doesn't even turn to look at her.

They're also just constantly with each other. Basically, every scene with them is Adam AND Lute. (Hell, even after Adam DIES, he's still there via Lute's hallucinations).

They basically never leave eachothers side.

They walk/hang out together, and based on how casual they seem, its clearly a regular occurrence.

This is OUTSIDE the workplace, btw. They have no obligation to hang out like this. That's a deliberate choice.

And when Adam starts talking about the exterminations, Lute immediately goes to shush him. She does not hesitate at all.

She physically stops him from going towards Charlie and Vaggie by holding him back, and she grabs him by the collar to pull him down.

That's isn't something you just do with anyone.

And definitely not with just your boss.

Adam is also relatively chill about her doing this. If it were anyone else, he'd definitely wouldn't just let that slide. But again, it's Lute. It's someone he is obviously comfortable with & around a lot, and that cannot have been the first times she's done that. So it's fine.

Again, with the whole following each other around thing; Lute goes with him to confront Vaggie.

She does not have to be there.

Hell, I'd argue she probably shouldn't be there. She obviously hates Vaggie, so why take her directly to someone she hates? That's a problem waiting to happen.

And this isn't a work related activity. It's not like Adam's obligated to have her there, or she's forced to go. Its a choice.

They choose to always be together.

Part of her job requirements as lieutenant isn't to follow Adam around, hype him up during songs, or take walks with him outside of hours; Adam isn't forced to bring her around everywhere either.

They're spending time together because they WANT to spend time together. They're choosing to hang out in situations where it is not required, and honestly? They're choosing to be around each other as much as possible.

Lute doesn't have to go everywhere with him or stand as close to him as she does, and Adam doesn't have to bring her everywhere or be nearly as friendly as he is.

Part of why I never understood people interpreting their relationship as purely boss & employee is because of all this. No one hangs around with their boss all the time or gets this level of comfortable with their employee.

And they're clearly super close, enough to do little gestures without thinking.

To me, it feels like they've known and been with each other forever. The way they'll lean on one another, glance over at each other, and move in perfect sync? That's reminiscent of someone you've known for a long time. It's a person you can always turn to, or lean on, or back up because they're always there.

They're always right beside each other so they can share these little moments together.

It is literally devastating. She needs so much help and I think the people in Heaven are more focused on Hell right now to want to support her. Charlie had her friends to support her through her grieving Pentious. Lute has no one.

As I’ve mentioned before, it’s seriously my absolute favorite trope when tough characters like this break down. Her love for Adam is visceral in this whole song, but especially these two frames. You can visibly see her misery and sadness and grief all bubbling up to the brim and overwhelming her entirely. It threatens the very essence of her demeanor, and even then, the only person she feels comfortable spilling that all out in front of is Adam (even if it isn’t really him.)

Like despite all the fronts and facades she puts up, all she really wants to do is collapse into him and let everything else fade away. He was her only true place of sanctity, and now? All that’s left in his wake is a hallucination.

Lute is such a strong character, and seeing her in such a different light like this is so heart wrenching but also so necessary. Her depth is unmatched and I love characters like this so much. Her strength isn’t undermined by moments like this either, if anything it’s amplified. And that’s what makes characters like her sooooo well-written.

Had a vision for besties and mine au