Happy 4th! Have spent my day shopping for a blowup pool, filling it up, and then boiling in it like a potato in a stew all afternoon.

It’s 102 real feel 120 here today. So I honestly lasted a just an hour before I retreated back into the house lol. Z checked the temp on the water a few mins ago and said it legit felt like a hot tub 💀 so maybe we will be hot tubbing tn lmao.

We finally got (decent) rain today after being in a drought for months (ty trop storm Andrew) and the temp dropped from 100 to 72. Bless.

My best friend FINALLY got surgery on her broken arm after her shitty doctor waffled for 6 months. Her new surgeon was appalled and got her in for surgery within a week. Sounds like it went well thank god.

I have three tomatoes on my tomato plants. I don’t even like tomatoes. I planted them for my spouse to eat and also as an ode to my mother, who loved homegrown tomatoes more than me lmfao. I love the smell of tomato plants though. Anyway I’m excited to see some fruiting going on and I’m v proud that I managed to keep them alive.

I styled our buffet table in our kitchen and she’s v cute. Going to thrift for some table linens this weekend to round it out!

Im going to a work conference in Baltimore in August and was told I had to front $2k+ to go, with reimbursement later. This is a legitimately insane policy for a state government lmfao so I pushed the hell back and made them do more digging. It appears that I only have to front for hotels and food now, which will be way cheaper than the original quote so! Can’t be too angry, but still bitter that I have to pay for a bougie hotel room in Baltimore as I await months to be reimbursed. But a win is a win!!

Sept 2024 - now

I’ve lost nearly 40lbs. My mental health was at an all time low 2024 through at least half of 2025. The grief and trauma after my mom died finally hit full force as the wedding planning was done and I was then left with the horrors of my brain lmao. It was one of the hardest periods of my life. But I worked so hard to drag myself out of not only a mental low, but also an uncontrollable bingeing routine. I learned how to actually sate my sweet tooth without eating 1000cals of ice cream in a sitting. My parents never taught me balance. They modeled binge eating and restriction and I knew nothing different. So I’ve been working with medical professionals including my psych, primary care, and a WL doc to figure out my health. I am still working to get my thyroid in check, started ADHD meds a few months ago, and worked with a nurse on goals to set for myself to improve my eating habits, give myself healthier options when I have a hankering for something sweet, and have been working through trauma therapy twice a week.

I didn’t want to lose the weight bc I hated myself. I felt so uncomfortable and not at home in my body. I was so dissociated and out of my body that I had no idea how much I’d actually gained until I saw a scary ass number on the scale. I had pain associated with my larger size that I didn’t really notice until it was gone. But over the last year, I’ve really see the biggest impacts on my actual physical fitness. I can get off the floor without using my hands. I can do weighted lunges without feeling like I’m going to collapse. My blood pressure was a little elevated and now it’s totally normal. My back and shoulder pain is gone. I just feel SO much better.

Most of the time I hardly notice the actual weight loss. It’s happened so gradually then all at once ya know? Like I still feel like I’m in a bigger body than I am.