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i think it is for the best i leave this blog, even if its just for a week. the mental toll ive taken just trying to do things on here is not worth anything, ive started to lose a lot of enjoyment in trying to keep her muse alive, and i feel like jae as a muse has not been easy to interact with / navigate. tbh on top of that, i just feel like i havent found a solution to make her more interesting / palatable, and plotting has been a major struggle despite it being my priority across all my muses. i just dont think a muse like jae had any potential to thrive in the rpc space, so i will just leave her blog here for now. i do believe ive made a few people uncomfortable when ive attempted to plot, accidentally stepping on toes, so i do apologise for that greatly. thank u for ur understanding and patience <3

She tugs at the ribbon's length, loosening the one binding her knees just enough for her hand to slip up Jae-hwa's silken thighs. "Should I make it up to you? You can be as angry as you want with me." — @saraeanwa

　　as much as she wishes to obey, it proves to be a challenge to wipe the pout off her strawberry lips, the darkened rose tint on her cheeks. her skin is soft, warm to the touch⸻　　feeling like a vulnerable little gift, a sweet lamb ready for the slaughter, to be devoured whole. her heart races, knowing well that this had all come from her own choices, the ultimate need to prove herself to lilit, to look good in her eyes,　　to be praised as something worth being perfect,　　"　i-i'm not angry at you,　"　　a slight stutter, the shaky exhale that slips past her lips, focusing on the touch upon her thigh more than she should. mere contact between them both　﹠　it already has her stumbling over her words. thighs squeeze together without much thought, as if a half-hearted effort in order to suppress what would soon become inevitable. the butterflies in her stomach, her clouded mind,　　"　i just want to do what i think is right for you, miss lilit　　...　"　　

thursday..... and i bet you wish you were her