saraelizabeth

My thin place. My sacred place. The place that has seen the most tears. Held the most heavy conversations. Heard the deepest cries from a scared, tired, worried, grieving, pain-filled, angry, hopeless, Sara as she petitioned the Gates of Heaven. Listened to the whispers of the words I’m pregnant after years and years. Held space for the wrestling of the should we/shouldn’t we as we navigate…

This weekend was full of my best friends and it made my heart so happy. My friend who makes me feel like I’m 47 but also 22 turned 24 on Saturday so we made a road trip down to the coast of Georgia and picked up our 3 hour away bestie to spend 24 hours together laughing, crying, eating, and celebrating. Sunday my foster mom friend turned best mom friend and I road tripped to Charlotte to see a…

Last night as we were in the middle of cleaning up dinner I stopped everything and asked the family if they wanted to go get ice cream. As you can imagine, we were met with resounding squeals and enthusiasm. Our current chapter of life has us turning pages hesitantly, unsure what will be written, however we do know there’s always room for ice cream on the page. Maizie is a sugar cone queen, has…

Every morning after Jeremy drops our middle, Jake, off at school he comes home with Callum and walks straight into my office. It’s my signal to take a break, get down on the floor and engage in play for however long I can before switching back into working mom mode. More often than not, Cal has a book he wants to read. He prefers turning the same two pages, pointing with his chubby, always…

It’s been 7 years, 10 months, and 10 days since I wrote my last blog post. I don’t think you ever realize in the moment that the thing you’re doing right then could be the last time it ever happens, I know on July 20, 2018 I didn’t. And today, as we are preparing for a new season to begin I found an external hard drive dating back a decade and found writings on it I forgot I ever typed up. I’m…

I’m t-minus four days until my 26th birthday. I love my birthday. Always have. It’s a great reminder of where I’ve been the last year, and what I have to look forward too. I wrote a post last year about 25 things I wanted to do during my 25th year and I’m going to be honest with y’all. I didn’t complete all 25. And while I could be really discouraged because I didn’t complete the goal, I’m…

i’m telling you a secret

I’m about to tell you something that not many people know.

And maybe after this blog post like five more people will know, but that’s okay.

It’s something that I’ve been dreaming of for years.

I’d say probably since I was six or so.

I pushed the desire aside for the last two decades because, well, life.

And then I didn’t think that it was even something that I needed anymore.

But yet, from time…

I started a new job back in April. It was a hard decision to leave the company I had been at for the last four years, but when opportunity knocks, sometimes you need to answer.

I was nervous leaving the comfort of my cubical, the predictability of each day, and the relationships I had made, but the scent of a fresh start was almost intoxicating.

When I started my new job there was mention of a…

The glory in her midst.

I’ve taken a little five month sabbatical and figured instead of trying to explain what’s been going on since then, I would just dive into whats on my heart this Saturday morning in the suburbs of Atlanta. When I was pregnant with Maizie I remember being asked if I had a specific verse I was praying over her and her life. I didn’t at the time, as fear of losing her was a possibility every day in…

Jeremy had to unexpectedly go out of town late Friday night so it left little miss and me alone for the weekend. I’m used to Jeremy working weekends so I normally try and get as much done during the day while he is asleep that way when he wakes up we can hang out. I’ve made many a grocery store, Target, and even mall run during those hours and 98% of them have gone off without a hitch. Yesterday…

Welcoming Miss Maizie pt 3

I figured I would finish off the third and final part of Maizie’s birth story this Monday morning before I head back to work at the end of the week. Here is part one and part two if you missed them! The rest of the C-section went smoothly. I was wheeled to post-op where I was given my purse, aka my pain medicine that went into my epidural, and waited patiently for Jeremy to come back to me. At…

Welcoming Miss Maizie pt 2

Here is the second part of my birth story with Maizie. If you missed the first part, check it out here. It all seemed to happen so fast after we made the decision to do the C-section. I had my new nurse come in and get me all set up for surgery. We had to start another IV because the one they had started the day before was in a weird spot and wasn’t going nearly as fast as it needed to. My…

Welcoming Miss Maizie pt 1

Today marks five weeks that our sweet girl has been alive here on earth. I figured what better way to celebrate than writing out her birth story which will take a few posts to get through.. Enjoy! Thursday was the day before the ‘big day.’ I was headed out of my room in HRP and down to L&D to have Maizie. The IV Team came into my room in the early afternoon and got my IV started, I packed my…

your attitude determines your outcome

For those of you who are just tuning into my series of posts while being in the hospital, please see part one here and part two here. The rest of the week was pretty quiet. I only had my mom or Jeremy with me for a few days, as I was so tired, my body ached, and I just didn’t want to have to be ‘on’ in front of people visiting. Friday night I was feeling much better and had some of my best…

from the lagoon to the beach

For those of you that have missed it, check out the first blog I posted on finding out my water broke and being admitted to the hospital for 48 hours here. I’ve never spent the night in the hospital before. I’ve taken Jeremy to the hospital a few times since being together and have been seen in the emergency room but I’ve always been able to go home and sleep in my own bed. This was a completely…

My scenery has changed drastically the last twenty-five days. Goodness, I can’t even believe it’s been twenty-five days. My hope is that before I give birth, sometime in the next 18 days, I can recap all that has happened here in the hospital so I can write about our journey after little miss is born! March 9th was a day like any other. I got up and got ready to go to work. For any woman out…

The second time I ever saw those faint pink lines show up on a pregnancy test I was shocked. The shock quickly became excitement, which then turned into fear. All of the emotions I had been sorting through the last five months came rushing back. What happens if this baby doesn’t make it like Everett? How am I going to deal with being pregnant again? Are we ready for this? We don’t even live in…