Saphirablue's world

I'm in such a slump.

I'm not watching my shows/movies. Even shows/movies I'm exited about and have been looking forward to getting new eppies of and start rewatching. I'm rewatching some eppies of some of the few reality shows I like (BondiRescue for example) and some promos/interviews with actors and/or musicians I like but that's it. I think, my brain just needs a break from everything that is even slightly demanding because, well, *looks around* and also my job has been very tiring for the last months/years.

Reading does only work so much that I keep up with my goal to read 100 pages/week when it comes to books (and for this I have to re-read favourites that I know that won't get ruined by this slump). The only thing that really works for me at the moment is fanfic with hashtags like DickGraysonNeedsAHug/DickGraysonReceivesAHug and ShaneHollanderNeedsAHug/ShaneHollanderReceivesAHug.

And no, I have not watched Heated Rivalry (yet). I've read the first two books earlier this year (current wait time in my library for the next book in the series is 18 weeks ;.; (down from 24 weeks when I placed the hold)) (we'll see if I keep being patient or if I give up and buy the books) and made the "mistake" to look for fic and hit the jackpot with the second fic I've tried. So, for two? three? days now, I'm in a deep dive into the world of gay hockey players and especially the adorableness and BAMFness that is Shane Hollander (also, already can say - I like fanon Illya way more than book canon Illya). /o\ I mean, I kinda like some aspects of hockey and before the pandemic hit, I went to a few games in my country (I really should go again but I really do not like the fighting and how some fans behave) and watched some highlight stuff, etc on Youtube but I didn't expect to be grabbed so hard by it. Especially with having only watched some promo clips of the show on Youtube... But, I really, really, really kinda want to watch it? My brain is really latching onto it.

And, that's why I'm currently debating with myself if I should sign up for HBO Max. On the one hand - Heated Rivalry and The Pitt. But on the other hand - haven't found anything else interesting on their (very sparse) site that would make me go "Yes, I also want to watch that!". AHHHHH. And especially with my slump thing going on? But, maybe watching these two shows would get me out of the slump? ARGHHHHHHHHH. Send help?

Also, BTS is having the closest concert to my location these days and, while I would never ever have won the ticket war - I'm kinda kicking myself for not even trying when I'm scrolling through concert videos... Also, I want to go to Linkin Park again. *cries*

Other than that - weather is okay but the next heatwave is coming up (I really do not like warm weather. I feel way much better if it is cooler.). I still have a week off from work. I went cycling today even though the wind was horrible. I got new glasses and, hello, the world is very sharp again. Got very cute pics of Guestdog yesterday. I slept good the last few days (of course, not today for whatever reason).