Staying Sober- my life

so my best friend has a condition, and its affecting her life so drastically She is my only best friend, and for years. I wish I could make it go away for her, and I cant. Its horrible to see her going through this all, and I can only support her. Its not about me though, its about her. I just find it hard for me, I want to cry everytime, its just bad news after bad news. Surrendered to my higher power, its in their hands.

It's been a couple of weeks since I last wrote Still waiting to hear from uni, very frustrating but have handed it over to my higher power. Started smoking again, am struggling with it but am not beating myself up about it too much Getting to a lot more meetings, its vital and I never realised how beneficial it really is, seeing my sponsor once a week too which I love. I really need to practice remembering to be kind and gentle to myself, I am too hard on myself. Am currently working towards step 8, but giving myself a bit of a break at the moment from step work as exhausted. Watched a really interesting documentary on young drinkers in Britain. Going to a meeting Tuesday and Wednesday and am looking forward to those. Seeing my sponsor weds, going with an aa mate to a car boot Sunday morning, then a meeting Sunday afternoon. Am proud of myself for prioritising my sobriety before anything else.