I am in desperate need of affection. I want someone to hold me while I curl up in their lap and cry. I want to feel safe, I want someone to stroke my hair and tell me everything is going to be okay. I just want to wake up in the morning and that void is no longer there. I want someone to cuddle with and get lost in each other's eyes. I feel so embarrassed with how desperate I am with men, I just want to constantly throw myself into someone's arms and feel touched. I want someone to care about my feelings, i want someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay, i want to just sit in a ball and cry and just feel my tears burn my cheek. My chest hurts, it feels like an empty cave waiting to be filled with love, i try everyday to fill that cave, listen to happy music, live how i want, but at then end of the day i get stuck in a daydream for a little to long so i can remember what it felt like to be loved. I want attention, i want affection, i want long conversations filled with nervous laughter and feel my legs shoot with adrenaline. I want someone to make me feel like they can't live without seeing me everyday. I just want to be held, I lay down in my bed in my own house and I still don't feel at home. Nothing feels like home. Everything is so surface level feeling. Being lusted over bandages that feeling for a while. Some days it hurts more than others but lately it especially hurts. It hurts when I come home to nothing, it hurts to feel like I'm annoying everyone around me with how needy and avoidant I can be. It hurts when I'm lying alone and have no one to share my thoughts with out of sheer embarrassment of someone seeing how lonely I am.
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