Sammys world of weird

June 11, 2015: “You trust me?!” He said in a manner  that was halfway between a question and a declaration – between confidence and confirmation. I could only manage to nod in response as I looked up at him, but my eyes were shining and my breath was sharp with excitement. I felt like such a child around him. He took my right hand and led me in to the artificial abyss, where time was…

There’s such a difference between us and a million miles!

Artist: Adele Song: Hello Album: 25 (2015) You have got to be living under a rock if you haven’t heard Adele’s new song yet. Basically, she returned after 3 years with a new single and slayed us all!!! I’m usually not a fan of posting songs that are all the rage at the moment… but I love this woman, I had been waiting for her new album for ages.. and when a song did come out.. it was a song so…

May 2, 2015: Do you hear it? Sometimes in the dead of the night, my heart cracks and I call out your name. It is a raw, vulnerable, pure call. It is one of the most honest things I utter. It is broken and honest and is full of longing for a time, a place and a person I no longer have a claim on. It is one of those moment, I feel closer to reality more than ever… and I think, that if the universe…

Artist: Tove Lo Song: Talking Body Album: Queen of the Clouds (2014) Hello to all the people of the world. This little girls is back home from her adventures in the desert. I spent a month there and I have returned having reflected and with some perspective. It’s really great being back, I missed my bed and my mums cooking for sure… but I also miss the town I left behind. I had the time of my…

Greeting from Dubai! I am currently traveling. The reasons for my travel were heartbreaking and sudden. I made a choice to go away for a little while to change my mind and get some distance from back home… I’m 5 days into my vacation and I have to say, it is working brilliantly.. I am staying here with my childhood friend.. the dream of us being roomies was almost 10 years in the making and it is…

April 30, 2015: I had other choices. I could’ve gone a hundred other ways to a hundred different places with a choice of different people… but somehow, I always chose you. I chose you when it was wrong to do so. I did it selfishly, I did it at the cost of others and my own happiness and I did it again and again and again. I chose you when it was not wise to do so, I did it against all sane advice…

March 31, 2015 I believe in signs. I have lost most of the conversations we had. The rest of it I gathered up and kept safe in an archive to forever hold on to. But I believe in signs, and every time I have lost  a piece of you… I’ve known it’s something bigger than us all telling me to stop, be smart, think twice, let go and run the other way – and though I know they’re right, I’ve only ever…

Artist: Ed Sheeran Song: Photograph Album: X (2014) Sometimes life gives you a moment of happiness and it’s quickly followed by devastation… but it’s okay it is that way things work… I’ve had a long going on these past few weeks, from falling out with real close friends to meeting new people and then losing those people in the most hurtful of ways… I have a lot of choices and decisions to make in…

March 22, 2015: There’s never any one reason for anyone to be having a bad day. We always keep piling things on, layer after layer, small and big until one day it loses balance and topples down resulting in one awful day.  That’s how it always is with me. My day could get ruined just because I can’t find my keys, but if I pulled back a layer, I know it’s also because I lost a favorite pair of…

March 10, 2015:

“I need time.” I pleaded “I’m not over it yet.”

“How long do you need?” He asked “When will you be okay?”

“When I have a bad day and my first reaction is not to go cry in front of him, or when he is not the first name that comes to mind when I need advice. When a joke starts feeling funny even without sharing it with him. I’ll be okay as soon as I stop dreaming about his eyes,…

March 7, 2015:

“I know you!” That was out go-to phrase. The reason of a sudden impulse, the excuse of an unexplained action, the answer to an inexplicable question and the closer to a number of arguments.

How did we know certain things about each other? How could we guess each others reactions or address thoughts that hadn’t been spoken out loud?

There was no logical answer to these questions…

March 4, 2015:

There’s a spot in the city which I call yours. It’s nothing to look at. It’s a busy intersection on a road where the cars never stop going, surrounded by disheveled buildings and burnt trees. People rush by it so quickly I bet no one ever gives it a second thought – but it’s there that I first realized how much I loved you, how much I was willing to give to you.

Across town is a…

February, 2015:

There are three songs in total that remind me of him.

Just three.

All the others still sing about you…

February 6, 2015:

“Tell me,” someone once asked casually one time “What was it like loving him?”

I thought how to answer that question, finding words insufficient to form a reply.

“You remember being in love for the first time?” I started “It was me, being completely stupid. I looked up to him too much, I agreed with everything he said. He was never wrong. I believed all his opinions, even the…

Artist: The Neighbourhood

Song: Sweater Weather

Album: I Love You (2013)

It’s another one of those happy dark kinda tunes, for a good day. It is a very good day today, it looks like rain, the weather is chilly again… and I am an aunt. My beautiful baby sister had a beautiful baby girl yesterday and I am in love with a tiny tiny little person…

So to everyone in the world, smile and have a good…

January 31, 2015:

You can have one more month, her heart told her.

The first few days she spent in anxiety and panic as you removed her from your life. The next few, in desperation of holding on to something meaningful, anything of value.

On the tenth day she broke her ties with him as she came to terms with the fact that he was only a replacement for you.

On the eleventh, she woke up knowing…