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How to Write a LGBT+ Character…

Like any other human being on the planet.

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And if you wanna be fancy, write them calling out others bullshit with the passion of a thousand suns

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Chapter one- Childhood memories

This is going to be a fanfiction with many warnings which I will add at the beginning of each chapter. This will also be posted on my wattpad account!!

All the credits go to @sammie-cant-write

Ialsogottheirpermissionsoyoudonthavetoworryaboutthat-

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Warnings: Abuse and Language

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Race's pov-

Nov. 1, 1993-

My life all started on the first of November, the year of 1993. Everything seemed perfect and happy. I was a healthy kid, which was a good thing, of course, but that didn't seem to last long.

"Anthony"

My mother said, smiling down at her one and only child in her arms. She was so happy, but my father on the other hand? He wasn't happy at all.

Nov. 10, 1993-

My parents have been fighting for 8 days now. It somehow turned into a physical argument.. every... single.. time.

"That worthless piece of shit!"

"Useless!"

"Just as ugly as you are!"

"He'll do this world no good"

"He'll grow to be a useless nobody.."

And I guess he was right. Maybe I am a worthless and ugly nobody. Maybe I didn't do this world any good.

It wasn't too long after one of the worst fights where he decided to leave. And for good.

Dec. 24, 1996-

"Ma?"

"Yes, baby?"

"Is Pop coming home for Christmas dis year?"

Those words brought a strange look onto my mother's face. I was confused as to why she looked so upset. Did I do something wrong? All I wanted was answers.

"No, he's not.. maybe next year."

"But Ma-"

"Anthony, I don't want to talk about it. Go to bed."

I did what I was told. Laying down in bed, I covered myself with the blanket and just cried until I was finally able to fall asleep.

April 16, 1997-

My mother's wedding to my step-father. To this day, I still don't know where they met or why she chose him as a husband.

I stood there and watched them get married, smiling, thinking that everything was going to be fine after that. Of course, I was wrong. Wasn't I always wrong?

Bruised and beaten and tired. Was it ever going to end?

Every day was a fresh start of being tormented. New bruises and cuts all over my body. Guilt and regret filled me as I already wanted to end my suffering. I was only so young and I didn't know what I did to deserve this.

Soon I start school. Great right? I will have to go in on my first day looking like a complete mess. That smile will always be fake no matter what, and I will feel so bad for those who are my friends.. if I even make any that is. They'll have to put up with a friend who is fake and nobody likes fake people. That's what I was told anyway.

Jan. 3, 2000-

I felt completely numb. Doctors and nurses rushed in and out of the room. They did everything they could to save her. No matter what they tried or how many times they did, nothing worked. Hours upon hours of sitting there with a blank expression on my face, a doctor said "I'm sorry" as they proceeded to take off their gloves. I stared at them for the longest time, not knowing what to say. Angry and upset, I ran home, tears streaming down my face.

Dinner was different without Ma. It was complete silence half the time. I didn't want to eat but I did anyway so I didn't make my step-father upset.

"How was your mother?" He asked, putting some of the food in his mouth

"Fine, I guess..."

"You lyin'?"

I set the fork down slowly and stared right into his dark brown eyes. That was a way of saying 'yes'

"Are you serious? I thought I told you not to lie"

"Y-You did, sir..." (I called him 'sir' because why the fuck would I call him dad?)

"Then why are you?"

"I-I don't know.," I muttered.

"Tell me the truth boy. Go on"

"She... She's gone.."

"What do you mean by ‘She's gone’?!”

"SHE'S DEAD!" I raised my voice out of nowhere. Getting up, I try to walk away but I didn't get too far. He grabbed the back of my shirt and beat the shit outta me. As he did, the tears escaped from my eyes but I stayed silent, scared, and hopeless.

Jan. 4, 2000-

After yesterday, I finally got the chance to call for help. I was done being hurt by this man both physically and mentally. Soon, I'll feel safe and will be taken to a better place.

Jan. 15, 2000-

Brooklyn, New York. That's where I ended up. I moved schools and I got to say... I love it here! I made a friend by the name of Spot Conlon. He was pretty chill and had such a good reputation, which I admired so much. Every day, we'd go out and get some ice cream, feed the ducks, sit at the docks, swim; and for once in my life, I felt happy.

Jan. 18, 2000-

Today was the day of my mother's funeral. I put on nice clothes and went back to Manhattan with some older kid. No idea who he was but he was pretty friendly.

Standing there listening to what everyone had to say struck me. She didn't deserve the pain and all I could think of was that it was my fault. Maybe if I were a better son, she would still be here. This was going to be the last time I was going to see her so I said goodbye and apologized before heading back across the bridge to Brooklyn.

They wouldn't let me see her get buried. However, they gave me the location of the burial site.

May 29, 2001-

It's been a year since my mother has passed and a few weeks since my step-father's death as well. My biological father was long gone so they just considered me as an orphan. Packing up my things, Spot stood at the doorway with a small smirk on his face.

"You sure you want to go back to 'hattan?”

"Of course.."

"Well, where are you going to go? You got nobody"

"I'll find a place to stay. I'll get myself a job and I'll be fine"

"Anthony, you make it sound so simple when really, it's not. You can't just go back, ask someone for a job, and expect yourself to get accepted right on the spot. It'll take some time-"

"Just stop.. Please..."

"I'm just saying. You can't just-"

"I SAID STOP! Just leave me alone, OKAY?"

Rage filled my body as Spot went silent. He glared then walked off. There was no way he'd be my friend now!

I grabbed my belongings and left that evening without saying goodbye to anyone. Not even Spot.

June 5, 2001-

I got a job and met the love of my life: Albert DaSilva. He was perfect! I know I was still pretty young to get these feelings but... I couldn't help but love him.

March 31, 2006-

I got a hold of cigars and started gambling. Probably another good choice I've made. The cigars calmed me down, and ever since I got one, I haven't snapped at anyone or got so anxious. I earned some cash while gambling too which was amazing.

November 1, 2007-

After a few years of talking, Albert asked me to be his boyfriend; and on my birthday!! I accepted, of course, and realized that he was the only one who actually cared about me! Hopefully, it lasts.

The racetracks closed for the winter and I was quite bummed out, although I'll definitely go next year!

November 8, 2007-

I received the nickname "Racetrack" from the other boys who work with me. They said they'll call me "Race" instead because I loved watching the horse races. Ever since the track closed for the rest of the year, I wouldn't stop bothering them about it so here I am with "Racetrack" as a nickname

December 25th, 2007-

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

There was music, drinks, food, and presents everywhere. Us orphans stayed at a home in Manhattan and there weren't many of us so it was easier to get things done (if that makes sense.)

Albert got me a present that even I can't afford. A promise ring? I looked at him, letting a small smile take over. Not knowing what to say, I put it on and held his hand. This was one of the best days of my life! I couldn't be more grateful than this...

So I stared into his eyes and finally said

“I love you”

sammie-cant-write

I LOVE IT AAAAAAAA THANK YOU HSVRFEHKKCE

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ATTENTION WRITERS

Google BetaBooks. Do it now. It’s the best damn thing EVER.

You just upload your manuscript, write out some questions for your beta readers to answer in each chapter, and invite readers to check out your book!

It’s SO easy!

You can even track your readers! It tells you when they last read, and what chapter they read!

Your beta readers can even highlight and react to the text!!!

There’s also this thing where you can search the website for available readers best suited for YOUR book!

Seriously guys, BetaBooks is the most useful website in the whole world when it comes to beta reading, and… IT’S FREE.

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HEY! BECAUSE OF OP, THEY CREATED A SPECIAL WELCOME IF YOUR FOUND THEM THRU A TUMBLR WELCOME, ITS A YOUTUBE VIDEO.

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They also sent me this; which was super cool

writingonjupiter

*slams reblog button*

cianmars

@findingtallahassee holy shit! This is cool!

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“Authors retain all rights to works posted on BetaBooks, and can add or remove content at their discretion. BetaBooks makes no claim to any of the work posted on the site.”

Incase anyone was wondering

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Fanfiction isn’t written for you, it’s shared with you.

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BLESS THIS POST

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[words to read and write by]

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Everyone needs to remember this - writers as well. It’s okay to just write whatever you actually like and not write what people want you to.

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Thank you writers for everything you do💙

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Reblogs > Likes | It truly does make a difference for us

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This is true.

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Please reblog. Share share share share share

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THIS COUNTS FOR FICS TOO YOU GUYS reblog. It’s really not that hard

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^^^^ WRITERS TOO!!!

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Please 🙃 I’ve even seen creators complain about this, but then only like others work. We need to help each other

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EDIT: This post is inclusive to ALL art forms.

Likes can only go so far for artists. Artists may exclusively upload their artwork to tumblr, or don’t have the time to use other sites and prefer tumblr over deviantART due to its simplicity, but the tagging system can make it harder to navigate. Many artists on tumblr tag with high-traffic tags or use their own tags to prevent tag clogging which eventually become lost. That’s why it’s very important to reblog an artist’s work.

I’m not trying to push you to ruin your blog’s aesthetic or something, nor am I saying that “you must absolutely reblog your favourite artist’s work or you’re trash”, all I’m saying is if you truly want to support your favourite artist, instead of just liking their posts, try to reblog them once in a while. The more reblogs they receive, the more exposure/notes/followers they may receive, and it’s just one of the easiest ways to show you care about them.

*This does not mean to reblog unsourced artwork or works reuploaded to another person’s blog without permission (re:stolen). Nor does this mean to reblog artworks without the artist’s consent, even if this case is slim.

eclecticmuses

Saw this on Twitter last night and it's a big, big mood.

whumptopia

“What… what did you do to me?” the whumpee asks slowly, stumbling away from the whumper, one hand clasped over their neck where they were stabbed with a syringe.

“Nothing you won’t sleep off,” the whumper answers easily, approaching with a predatory gait. The whumpee swallows hard, backing up.

“Stay… stay away from me!” they demand, gripping the counter as their knees buckle. The sedatives pumping through their system sap their strength, and their vision spins as they struggle to stay upright. “Get… away…”

The whumper looks on with an amused smirk as they collapse, hitting the tile with a heavy thud. Cocking their head, they smile down at the whumpee.

“Get some rest, sweetheart.” The whumper grins, revealing rows of bright and shiny teeth. “You’re gonna need it.”

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100 Whump Dialogue Prompts

1) “No one is coming to help you.” 2) “Your screams are music to my ears.” 3) “Keep your eyes open, I really want you to watch what I’m about to do to your little friend here.” 4) “Does it kill you? Knowing that you can’t do anything to stop me?” 5) “Don’t worry, I’m not going to kill you just yet.” 6) “You were always too soft, never could stand up for yourself.” 7) “Where’s your hero now when you need them the most? I don’t see them.” 8) “Do you really think they could ever love you?” 9) “Look at you now, you’re pathetic. You’re weak.” 10) “I don’t want to rush this, I’ve been waiting a long time for this moment so I want to be able to take my time with you.” 11) “But they told me they loved me.” “Aww, sweetheart, they were lying, I’m the only one who could ever love you.” 12) “I never wanted to hurt people! I didn’t want this life! You made me a monster.” 13) “I didn’t make you a monster, you were just born that way.” 14) “Hope you’re not too attached to that hand.” 15) “You killed them, you bury them.” 16) “You made me hurt them.” “I didn’t make you do anything you didn’t want to do.” 17) “Do as you’re told or you’re going to make me angry.” 18) “Don’t ever say that name in front of me again, do you understand?” 19) “I only do these things because I love you, you know that right? I don’t want to hurt you, but you just make me so angry sometimes.” 20) “Don’t take me back there! Please, I can’t go back there. They’re there.” 21) “If I tell you what they made me do you wont be able to look at me the same.” 22) “Let them go. I did everything you asked me to do, now just let them go!” 23) “You’re a talker, I never liked talkers. Let’s see how much talking you can do with your tongue cut out.” 24) “You never listen, but that’s okay because after I finish carving up your little friend over here I think you’re going to be able to hear me just fine. 25) “I’ve never smashed anyone’s hand with a hammer before so this is going to be a first for both of us.” 26) “What happened to you? What did they say to you?” “Please don’t make me tell you.” 27) “I can’t sleep, every time I close my eyes I see them.” 28) “They were right, I’m weak and I couldn’t save them.” 29) “Let them go and you can have me. Let them go and I’ll never try to leave again. I promise.” 30) “No, they were my friend. I should be the one to kill them.” 31) “No, go on, say it. Say that you wish I’d died instead of them, I know you want to!” 32) “Why do you stay with them? You don’t deserve to be treated like this, no one does.” 33) “The only thing you’ve ever been good at is being a coward!” 34) “You don’t belong here, you never did.” 35) “You’re a waste of air.” 36) “You’re useless.” 37) “They hurt you, why do you go back?” “They’re the only family I’ve got.” 38) “You don’t have friends, we’re the only ones who are able to tolerate you. 39) “I’ve felt pain all my life, but now? I don’t feel anything.” “Good, then you’re ready.” 40) “I wish they would have let you die that day.” 41) “You always were too emotional.” 42) “What do hugs feel like?” 43) “Why does everything hurt?” 44) “Why doesn’t anyone want me? 45) "Families are supposed to love you, not leave you.” “Then I guess I’ve never had a family.” 46) “Do you think I’ll ever have a family one day?” 47) “How long do you think they can hold their breath underwater before they need to breathe?” 48) “Hey! Hey, wake up! How many of these did you take, huh? No, no, don’t go back to sleep, you need to stay awake for me.” 49) “Are you afraid of me too?” 50) “Why didn’t you tell us you’d been hit? You almost died.” 51) “Prove your loyalty. Kill them.” “They’re just a kid.” 52) “Am I going to die here?” “No, okay? Just stay with me.” 53) “Your efforts to be the good guy have been so cute but it’s time to face reality. You were born to be bad, you’ll never be the hero. 54) "I’m fine.” “No you’re not, you’re losing a lot of blood.” 55) “Save the others first. Save them first or all my fighting was for nothing.” 56) “You see these scars? You did this to me.” 57) “Do you think they knew I loved them before they died?” 58) “Could you ever forgive me?” 59) “I can’t give up. They need me so I can never give up.” 60) “You couldn’t save your first love, what makes you think you can save your second?” 61) “It’s okay if you’re scared of dying, your friends were too.” 62) “Whatever you want, anything you want, I’ll give it to you. Just make it stop.” 63) “They say I’m a monster and I never believed them but now I think they’re right.” 64) “I failed my mission, I couldn’t save them. Their deaths are on me.” 65) “I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can barely fucking breathe because they’re gone and it’s my fault. And god knows what they’re doing to them right now and I’m just sitting here doing nothing!” 66) “Calm down, calm down, you were just dreaming.” 67) “Take me instead, please?” “What would I want with someone as pathetic as you?” 68) “If you have to kill one of us kill me.” 69) “I ruined your brilliant plan, I destroyed everything you built, I killed your friends, and now you’ve got one bullet left and two people in front of you. So, shoot me because if you shoot them and let me live I’m going tear you apart piece by piece. So, what’s it going to be?” 70) “I know you’ve been out for a long time need you to do a job for me.” “I’m not killing again.” “Not even if the person I’m asking you to kill is responsible for all of your pain?” 71) “It’d be a shame if someone you loved got hurt, I know how much your friends mean to you.” 72) “I hate myself when I’m with you.” 73) “I wish you didn’t have to be medicated to call me.” 74) “This is all your fault. I wish you’d died in that car crash instead of them.” 75) “I need to get up. They’re dying so I need to get up right now.” 76) “Just make it all stop, please, it hurts. Everything hurts.” 77) “We can’t be together. You know that. You and I bring out the worst in each other.” 78) “Be a shame if you kept talking and I had to take out a few of those teeth to shut you up. Especially since you’ve got such a lovely smile.” 79) "Look at that, your hero came for you after all. They really do love you, huh? It’s a shame you wont get the reunion you wanted.“ 80) "I know living with me hasn’t been easy but I really am trying here.” 81) “You put on such a brave face but the truth is you’re terrified of what’s out there.” 82) “You think you’re ready to do everything but you’re not. You’re not ready to kill someone, no matter how much you hate them.” 83) “Everybody keeps telling me what to do, what to say, what to think, what to feel and I can’t do this anymore, I can’t. I feel like I’m not even a person anymore and I just need it to stop. I just want everything to stop! 84) "I’m just trying to keep you from dying! Don’t you see that? I care about you and you are the last person I ever want to see dead out there, so just fucking listen to me for once!” 85) “I just want to keep you safe, there are a lot of bad people out there who want to hurt people like us. We have to be careful.” 86) “Goddamn it, kid, don’t you ever listen? Stay still, let me stop the bleeding, okay?” 87) “You are not one of us, okay? You’re just some rando who got dragged into all this shit. So take this money, get a bus ticket, and go home, kid.” 88) “What have I become?” 89) “Why hasn’t anyone looked for me yet?” “Because they don’t care about you like I do.” 90) “I’m not a kid anymore so stop treating me like I am!” 91) “They left you all alone. Stay here with me and I’ll never leave you. I can be your family and we can watch them all burn together.” 92) “Why did you jump in front of me back there?” “Why didn’t you move?” 93) “I never thought I’d see you again, they told me you were dead.” 94) “Get under the bed and don’t make a sound okay?” “But they’ll get you.” “Just get under the bed and no matter what you hear or what you see just stay completely quiet and completely still. Do that for me, alright?” 95) “Shh, it’s just me, don’t panic.” “Don’t sneak up on me like that.” 96) “I feel so useless.” 97) “You call out for them when you sleep. Do you want to talk about it?” 98) “My eyelids feel like they weigh a million pounds.” “It’s because you’re tired, you should get some sleep. We have to save the world tomorrow.” 99) “Hey! Hey, calm down. Calm down, it’s just me.” 100) “When I finish patching you up I swear to god I’m gonna kick your ass for making me worry about you.”

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Going back to the psych ward so I won't be posting for a while

A lot of people actually don't know that my old writing account was called cyber-life-sent-by-android. The reason it was called that was because of Detroit: Become Human one-shots was basically all I wrote.

HOWEVER, even though the fandom is practically dead... I kinda want to start writing for it again. Do you guys think I should?

PSA

I will be talking about mental illness, self harm and suicide so if that makes you uncomfortable, I don't suggest you read this

So...

You all have probably been wondering where I went.

And, although I don't have a huge audience, I feel like I should be honest right off the bat.

For practically my entire life I've been struggling with severe depression and anxiety. I've been struggling with PTSD for a little over 7 years and, recently, my mental health has plummeted.

I tried to commit suicide two years ago but, before I could, I was caught and hospitalized. A few months ago, I was self-harming constantly and had suicidal thoughts every day, multiple times a day.

I realized that if I kept on going without telling anyone that I would end up in the same place I was two years ago.

So, I told my guidance counselor and he didn't do anything. I tried a few more times and he decided to call my mom to come pick me up. My mom came, picked me up and we went to a psychiatrist appointment.

We came to the conclusion that I needed to be hospitalized again. I spent a little under a month in a psych ward and now I'm entered into a php.

Now, PHP stands for Partial Hospitalization Program. What that means is, instead of school, everyday I go into a building with the same group of people and I learn. Sounds like school, right? Well, instead of learning the quadratic equation and how to speak Latin you learn different coping skills. You learn coping skills, become more open with your trauma, get your feelings out in a healthy way and, hell, sometimes you even make friends.

And that's where I've been.

I'm going to continue to be in the php for another week or two which means I won't have access to my phone most of the time but I'll still try to crank out posts when I can.

Thanks for being so patient with me.

But!

If you are struggling with self harm, suicidal thoughts or anything of the like, I beg you to please seek help.

If you're scared of going, talk to me. I can tell you what most places are like to prepare you.

If you're unsure of where to go, I can give you recommendations.

Please, reach out.

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I didn’t wanna do this cause there was no anon, but now that it’s on I just wanna say that I loved the ralbert angst so much and you did really well writing it 🥺

Ahhhhhh! Thank you so much!

I had a lot of fun writing it because I really like writing angst but OH BOY JUST YOU WAIT I HAVE SOMETHING COMING SOON

#asks

You guys have no idea, everytime I proof read this fic, I start crying

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So like are the kinktobers still comin or not,its fine if not but like,tbh the list for it got me so hype

THEY ARE COMING I PROMISE! The thing is, I was writing them in Google drive and then I accidentally deleted the entire account because I'm a fucking idiot. IM REWRITING THEM THOUGH. SLOWLY BUT SURELY.

I'm dummy thicc in the head so I don't know if it worked or not but I'm pretty sure I turned anon on. So, if you wanted to send a request but didn't want to do it off anon, I'm fairly sure you can now.

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