Sam

if you compliment your cis male friends by calling them handsome and strong but you compliment your trans male friends by calling them pretty and cute and soft you need to take a moment and think about why you do that and how you really look at your trans friends

you may also take a moment to think if you call your cis male friends “man” but you call your trans male friends “boy” when they are the same fucking age :)))

Secrets like depression, eating disorders, self harm, or anything, are hard to keep. It’s hard because you want someone to know. You want them to ask why you’re sad, why you won’t eat, what happend to your wrists, or legs. And as good as it feels to let it out, you regret it.

empty head, heart and soul

I don’t know what to do. I have so much fear of getting older and never having experienced anything because of my mental illness. I have so much fear of the future and expectations of life and I just want to get away from it all. I feel like I’ve failed at everything in this life.

I just want it all to go away: the pain, the anxiety, the constant thoughts, the endless nights, this insistent ache of loneliness and the feeling of waking up and have to get through another day. I just want it all to be over.

“Everywhere I look there’s all these happy people. And I think ‘what’s wrong with me? Why can’t I be like them?’ ”