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The Idiot fandom is dying... Reblog if you're a real idiot...

I am having a TIME thinking of my disaster beloved Dmitri Karamazov tonight - like i LOVE that he dreams of "the babe" and wanting to help the poor and calls it a good dream - i LOVE that he so earnestly begs Andrey the troika-driver to forgive him "for everything" - i LOVE "god and devil are at war, and their battlefield is the heart of a man" - i LOVE how often and how emphatically he tells Alyosha he loves him - i LOVE "the hymn of the underground" and his heartfelt desire of spreading hope and joy and the love of God to his fellow-prisoners and i love that he's thinking about that while his own fate is in the balance - i LOVE that the narration notes (as if we didn't know him well enough by then) that he really really was not capable of being as "calculating" as the prosecutor was insinuating - i LOVE that he remembered the random German doctor who bought him a pound of nuts as a kid with so much gratitude - i LOVE that he wanted to make sure all the singers and dancers and servants got their share of snacks and drinks at his last wild revel - i LOVE that he was so fussed about apologizing to everyone he was slightly rude or impatient or threatening to (which, given his temper, was a lot of people) - i LOVE "in a thousand agonies, I exist! I see the sun, and if I don't see the sun, I know it's there - and there is a whole world in that, in knowing that the sun is there" - i LOVE that he thinks the world of Ivan despite Ivan's disdain - i LOVE that he was determined to "give way" and let Grushenka be happy with her officer and befriend him if that would actually make her happy - i LOVE how his love for Grushenka (always passionate and admiring) grows to something really noble and kind and self-abnegating - i LOVE that he was so moved by someone's simple gesture of putting a pillow under his head - i LOVE how much of his plot is simply trying to redeem his honor - i LOVE how he takes the police's interrogation in friendly good-faith and isn't like, concerned about incriminating himself because he's just speaking the truth and these guys are just doing their jobs - i LOVE him randomly quoting poetry while making his confessions to Alyosha - i LOVE his goodwill and sincerity in his introduction with Zossima - i LOVE him talking to Alyosha about the fierce passion and lust for life of the Karamazovs, and the 'ladder' they climb to new heights (or depths) - i even love seeing his struggles with himself, as he thinks with disgust and regret of the damage he's caused and what he can do to put a stop to it . . . I just don't know if I've ever encountered a character who more dramatically compassed the Struggle of like - having our impulses and our temptations and our sins, having our pride, wanting our way, yet having our thirst for righteousness and honor, our subsequent self-loathing, our love for life and love for people and passion and humor and warmth and gratitude and generosity - all our human contradictions! Who is doing it like him?? T-T We Stan a Human Disaster

the brothers k fandom is not big enough to satisfy my hunger for new content so I occasionally daydream about the brothers k fandom 2 where the tumblr tag has one gazillion followers the fics get enough kudos to break ao3 and everyone mischaracterizes alyosha to my utter horror.