Moi! My name is Willow, any pronouns, I'm an Alaska-based folk magic practitioner, heathen, and aspiring seiΓ°kΓΆna, hailing originally from the Low Saxon part of the Netherlands. Nederlandstalige blog: @schietwilg
I intended this blog to be about my practice, but my own posts are mostly about animistic theology and cosmology, connecting with your environment, getting in touch with culture, spirit work, functional syncretism, magic everywhere, and general ramblings and opinions about related topics.
I am always on my knees begging for asks!! Vagueposting about me is cringe, I can back up my arguments politely and in conversation! Ask me about my stances and engage in dialogue with me, it's my favorite thing!
Tags:
#apothecaric allerlei for my own blog posts;
#apothecaric art for my art;
#musings for substantial reblogs and short posts;
#willow reads will have all of my book reviews;
#herbarium for all of my plant musings and info!
#reblogs is where I collect stuff I really love.
#willow's asks for asks.
More under the cut!
Resource masterlists:
Germanic Paganism Resources
Herb Magic/Folklore Resources
Spirit Work/Animism Resources
Anglo-Saxon Heathenry Resources
I update them very slowly, so sorry! These resources are not a reflection of my sources nor my practice.
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More about me:
My faith is a central part of my life and I spend a lot of time with it. I am a Germanic polytheist, I syncretize the Norse pantheon with the Continental, but I often end up using Norse names for convenience. ΓΓ°inn/WΕden is who I have the most personal devotional relationship and he informs most of my life, practice, and values. I would say pagan animist theology and cosmology are my special interest and I write about them a lot.
My magical practice consists of Low Saxon, Frisian, Dutch and broader Germanic folk practice/magic/medicine. I consider house spirit work, card divination, and herbal magic to be my strong suits. In recent years I've started dabbling in seiΓ°r and galdr and I hope to keep expanding those skills to the point where I feel confident calling myself a seiΓ°r practitioner and not just margkunnig. By trade I was apprenticed as a gemologist and I enjoy researching the use of minerals in magic!
I would describe myself as extremely skeptical of the witchcraft community and I write a lot about it. If you are confused about my hostile attitude towards Wicca and seemingly conventional witchcraft practices, please refer to this post and this post, which will explain why I feel the way I do.
I believe in liberation, joy and well-being for all equally first and foremost. Get to know me!
Where to contact me:
- I have a carrd with more information about me.
- Consider joining my Discord community!
- Asks are always open! You are highly encouraged to use it for whatever.
I hope you appreciate what I put out there and find it useful to your practice. Hold 'oe kreggel! (Take care of yourself!)
Musing and reblog tags:
#hearth
#ethics
#cackled
#spirit complex
#resources
#dutch folk magic
#heathenry
#i hate wicca
(I'm really shit at using these but trying to get better)
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I got to see some 400-500 year old oaks today that are locally called wodan's oaks! The name is somewhat recent when it comes to these specific oaks! They where absolutely magnificent and i'm so thankful i got to see them and sit with them.
I really wish the community would realize that the word "spirit(s)" doesn't mean anything. arguably if you're an animist the word "spirit" means roughly the same as the word "thing." questions of recognizing spirits, feeling or seeing spirits, working with spirits, etc are moot questions because they're not actually asking anything meaningful. you're 'working with spirits' every time you pull a cup of coffee out of the machine and look at your cat and wipe down your counters.
at best 'spirit' is an anthropological (and at that secular-eurocentric) term that has various meanings depending on context and user, but none of the commonplace meanings of the word 'spirit' are actually useful for us, because even then it narrows down nothing. on top of that, in a functional animistic worldview, the idea of 'spirits' doesn't exclude the physical and living, even though witchy folks don't seem to include them in their definition of them.
outside of european anthropology, there are a million ways to define the word 'spirit' and a million kinds of 'spirits' within any given definition. cultural beliefs don't have some overarching idea of intangible presences, but countless individual types of beings in the world and often some system of taxonomy or organization among those beings.
if you are somebody who regularly does 'spirit work', it's imperative to refine your understanding of the beings you regularly work with. you should be able to categorize and understand them beyond vague and impractical ideas. and, more importantly, they should be integrated into your understanding of the rest of the world, rather than treated as completely separate and different from it.
the 'spiritual' community has a really big problem with ecofascist white guilt. people are always trying to reinvent the wheel of apologizing to your environment for existing in it as a way to appease their moralistic view of humanity and it's getting SO old. no, you don't need to and shouldn't be apologizing to plants for harvesting them or asking them for permission to harvest from them, and doing that doesn't make you a better person. you're making your own existence on this planet a moral failing.
you are just an animal, you are not above subtracting from the land and negatively impacting individual creatures on it, the question is just whether you're doing it with your own hands or not. if you apologize to plants for harvesting from them, you should also be apologizing for every item you check out at the grocery store, every step you take on a patch of grass, every time you get in your car. would you expect a bear to apologize to you before mauling and eating you? do you kneel at the edge of your bed every night to beg for the forgiveness of every bug you stepped on that day?
if "humanity" wasn't in the possession of whatever you think sets it apart from the rest of the animal kingdom, if we all lived in complete 'accordance' with 'nature', every single thing we did would tug on the web of fate of the land we were on. every berry you eat, every plant you harvest, every shit you take. at no point has anyone apologized for any of that or expected apologies for any of that. and the comical thing is we still impact the land in most of the same ways, just in removed ways we don't recognize as such.
the entire gag implies that if one could only not interact in any way with anything they deem 'natural', they would achieve moral perfection. that's bullshit. you will never gain moral perfection from inactivity, passivity, or distance from your surroundings. yes, plants are individuals with feelings and experiences, but part of accepting them as such is accepting that they understand that the risk of being alive is to die just like we do. part of accepting them as part of our ecological selves is accepting that it is normal and healthy for us to predate on plants and that that isn't just morally neutral, but perhaps outside of morality at all.
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Southern Alaska, from the Aleutians to the Panhandle in longitude and from Fairbanks to Ketchikan in latitude, has a curious landscape feature. Once you notice it, it's hard not to notice it. Between the apparent monotony of spruce trees and the great displays of wildflower fields, the entire state south of the arctic circle is embroiled in an unending turf war between two great and cruel kings: Pushki and Devil's Club.
The names of either plant are sure to strike fear into the hearts of all those who have lived in the Pacific Northwest, though to many, 'pushki' might be better known as cow parsnip or Satan celery, government name heracleum maximum. The name 'pushki' (also puchki or poochki) is a relic of the Russian colonization of Alaska, though what exactly it was ever meant to mean isn't known. The most famous theory is that the Russians thought the dead pushki stalks which remain during winter looked like small cannons, for which the word is pushka in Russian. But it is also speculated that it may have come from the Russian word for fur (after the hairs on the stems) or puchok, meaning 'bundle' or 'bunch', in reference to the flower habit. Even less well known are the indigenous names for pushki: ggis in Dena'ina, vgyuun (meaning 'dead stalk') or ugsuuteq in Alutiiq.
Devil's Club, however, is a universal name in the United States - though it may sometimes also be called Alaskan ginseng, which in my area in Alaska is comically considered something of a marketing term, not generally used by locals. In Dena'ina it's heshkeghka'a, in Alutiiq cukilaparnak. Its scientific name is the appropriately metal sounding oplopanax horridus, and though I dislike being rude to my neighbors, I think it would appreciate being thought of as quite horrid. Related to the placid ginseng it might be, it lives up to its name by being covered in thorns and spines that snap off on contact and leave hard fragments and minor phytotoxins sitting in the skin, which causes irritation and infection on top of the surprising amount of damage it manages to do to clothes and hide.
To match the horror of the Devil's walking stick, Pushki's terror factor is chemical warfare: even brief contact with the stems or leaves can rub off its sap, which contains chemicals that react with the skin and make it extremely photosensitive, causing immediate sunburn and sometimes even blisters. The subsequent photodermatitis - a condition where exposure to UV causes skin inflammation - can stay for months to years after contact depending on how long the sap could work on the skin.
A handsome devil's club. The biggest leaves are about a foot and a half wide. Notice the spines on the leaf veins.
Few places in Alaska have an even distribution of both plants, as they occupy the same ecological niches and compete for resources fiercely. You will never have to wonder whose territory you're in, either, as both have a habit of growing in dense clusters in marginal open spaces. As a result, if you live anywhere remotely rural, needing to wade through seas of one or the other is practically unavoidable.
Where I live on the Kenai peninsula there is an undisputed victor, at least for now. Pushki hordes march alongside me down every path and pasture, their great green hands brushing me as I trot past. I prefer living in pushki territory, being genetically resistant to their poison. My partner, who is easily affected, would rather be among the hoplite troops (if you got that joke, I see you linguistics nerd) some 10 hours north.
The pushki king is young and virile, like these boggy woods: his progeny lead his legions under his noble guidance. Pushki reproduces through heavy seeding before dying back in winter, bringing forth new soldiers with only few biennial veterans to guide them. But moreso than potent, he is also a talented strategist. He knows how to disperse his troops, how to hold his own and encroach on the other. He teaches his people how to create food stores, and how to negotiate with the locals. He lets the landscape do his work for him, allowing the wind to carry his forces wherever they are needed. They find meadows and margins to colonize, gulping up sunlight and shading the fragile borders of moss groves. The spruces allow them, because the pushki king agreed to shelter spruce children amongst their leaves. He even allied with his European cousins, whose men mingle with the Alaska natives. But all is not lost for his opponent. In all his ambition and productivity, the young king wastes energy, thinks the lord of thorns. Pushki may have leaves of similar size to a devil's club, but they use their stores quickly, and could never afford to be in the shade. So deep within the spruce trees, where needles obstruct soil and sky, scouts of the enemy team break between the lines.
Wizened by his exceptionally long life, the devil's club king is perhaps no king for battle at all. But he is cunning, and sly. When you first spot one of his kin, they look inviting. Huge, soft-green leaves like hands outstretched, bright red drupes delicately stacked on the whole. The entire plant possesses an air of elegant stillness. You wish to lay your hand on the leaf, to put into perspective how big it truly is. But as your palm lowers you find this soldier armed down to their wiry knuckles. Once wounded by this overzealous defense, the plant becomes quite menacing to the beholder; the elegant visage changes into a villainous creature peering out from its prickly armor. The stillness turns eerie and calculated. These warriors do not frolic in camps like their hotblooded enemies, waiting for orders. Here on the battlefront, they creep through the woods in silence, for they are many in the body of one. Once past the enemy lines, unbounded by the need for sexual reproduction, the spearbearers clone themselves through rhizomes, slowly forming thickets as dense as the opponent's. Once established, they entice bears with their bright berries to spread their seed. Strength and numbers they have not, not here. But they have arts unknown to the pushki king, of magic and medicine.
Both kings are people of immense contradiction. The pushki king is in many ways the very picture of stateliness, but he has not the courage to flaunt his defenses as openly as the devil's club. His forces feign an air of casual coexistence until an unlucky traveller brushes past with bare calves. While the other, in turn, seems wry and loveless, but in fact nurtures many, from the bears eating his berries to salmon growing in the shade of his leaves.
In some ways, the plants resemble each other. Notice the spines on the devil's club, and the malefic red stalks of the h. mantegazzianum, the giant bear claw.
Where devil's club is a relative I had never met before I came here, whose respect I gained simply because of their goodwill, pushki are a people I have an ancestral tie to. In my native language, we call pushki species bear claws. It is mete to respect the defenses of a plant my ancestors thought to name after an animal so revered its name was never to be spoken aloud, only called by the epithet of 'the brown one'. So unspeakable was it, that the original word has been forgotten. Unaffected I may be by their poison, but they have my utmost respect still. Many people go years handling pushki without effect, only to suddenly become severely allergic. And I have seen firsthand that the old belief is true: the redder the claw, the bloodier. Red is pushki's European cousin, which we call giant bear claw. That king has conquered before, brutally and without mercy. He is the cruelest of all the bear claw chiefs, his poison is the strongest and his stalks the very tallest. His tribe marks their victories by painting themselves in the lifeblood of their victims. I sometimes wonder if once the noble green-stalked pushki king wins his war, his bloodthirsty cousin has a coup planned for him. Undoubtedly that would be a fearsome battle, one not without collateral damage. The same logic that informed my ancestors of the nature of bear claw was applied by Alaska natives, who shared the belief that both pushki and devil's club were protective plants and strong defenders. Many of the natives on phalanxeer turfΒΉ use them as protective amulets, and striking amulets they are. Beaches here are littered with the bones of the devil, bleached by the sun, the dark cavities where their cruelest thorns used to sit made clearer against the grey.
On wet days, the plants of both tribes announce their presences boldly on the air. You either love it or hate it, the thick musk of soldiers at war permeating the atmosphere. Devil's club carries the distinct medicinal quality of ginseng, where pushki goes from an agreeable sweetness in flower to a dank, wild scent in the fall. Fragrance, good or bad, has been associated with purification since time immemorial. It is no surprise that Yup'ik peoples used the smoke of wild celeriesΒ² to purify bodies, Tlingit practitioners ate devil's club root to cleanse themselves ritually, and the Haida chewed on the sticks and bark for it. My faith has it that a home is just the body of a bigger beast we live in, and here too homes could be fumigated with the smoke of either.
The Bladder Festival is a Yup'ik feast which honors the yuit (personhood) of seals, which is believed to reside in their bladders. Wild celery played a role in this: offerings would be made to the celeries before they were harvested and hosted in the casgiq (men's house). An idol would be constructed with the celery stems, who would be honored like a living person. Based on reports from white anthropologists about the roots of wild celeries being believed to "represent each man's partner from the underworld,"Β³ and resembling ancestral spirits, it is thought that the rites of the Bladder Festival may have revolved around invoking the relationship between ancestral spirits and the yuit of the seals, to encourage the seals to be plentiful the upcoming year, on top of the veneration of the seals.
In their world, where kingship is divine providence, it makes sense that the features of the rulers are reflected in the individuals. Who knows who first started this war, and how long it will go on. Who knows who will reign as victor, if anybody. But it is customary for fairy kings to be at odds with one another, and competition is no evil in nature. My personal pushki platoon is one I am happy to see each summer. To the untrained eye it looks samesy, but it houses a diverse understory of grasses, bistorts, mint family members, chocolate lilies and horsetails. The pushki have stood this dutiful watch along the paths between our houses and the church since anyone here can remember, and with time a mutual respect has grown. I do not harvest much pushki - we do not tend to eat them, rather the nettles, and we have an abundance of angelica lucida around to take for roots. I have no need of them over my doorway for protection when they have chosen of their own accord to grow by the entrance. But though we do not speak much, I think we are good friends.
These kings I hope to never meet. I can only imagine the magnificence of their courts, contrasted against the terrible sight of their majesties. But I am not ready to be swept to the realm of the ancestors by their enchantments. Even here, in the land of the living, their generals and princelings command respect and reverence. Hail to them, who nourish the land with their sons, and buttress the veins of the earth.
Notes:
ΒΉ The Tlingit used devil's club sticks to beat suspected witches, and the Haida place it above doorways and on fishing boats to ward off evil. The Tsimshian and Nuxalk, and probably others, wore the plant as a protective amulet.
Β² Pushki is also referred to as 'wild celery' by Alaska Natives, but that name serves more as a plant category defined by its relation to mankind than as a species identification. 'Wild celery' is a food category, and individual species within that category have their own names. Species of angelica are also called wild celery. Everything that follows when discussing the Bladder Festival is about wild celery, see Yungcautnguuq Nunam Qainga Tamarmi below.
Β³ That is not the only thing to suggest that wild celery has a special association with women's bodies. In the same book it is cited that a nursing mother with a newborn boy was not allowed to eat wild celery as it was considered to have 'female flesh', and that another woman was given wild celery as medicine when she was sick as a child, and thereafter she could never eat it again, but her body "grew fat and thin along with the plant each spring and fall." A different white anthropologist, Charles Gillham, recounts a legend about a Yup'ik man who mistakes a wild celery for a beautiful young woman.
Bibliography and Further Reading:
- Alutiiq Museum Plant Gallery: pushki | devil's club
- Medicinal Flora of the Alaska Natives - Ann Garibaldi
- Traditional Use of Devil's Club by Native Peoples in Western North America - Nancy J. Turner, via ethnobiology.org
- Alaska Native Plants Program
- Russian history survives in Kenai Peninsula place names -Β Elizabeth Earl in the Peninsula Clarion
- Yungcautnguuq Nunam Qainga Tamarmi: Edible and Medicinal Plants of Southwest Alaska - Ann Fienup-Riordan et al
- The population ecology and ethnobotany of Devil's Club - Trevor C. Lantz
- Tla Yahda: Haida Museology Makes Things Right - Lucy Sdahl αΈ΄βawaas Bell
- USDA FS Index of Species Information: Devil's Club | Pushki
- Alaska's Wild Plants - Janice J. Schofield
- Discovering Wild Plants - Janice J. Schofield
Two different expressions of pushki flower: flat and bulbous umbels.
The amount of self-control it requires not to say anything about people referring to rocks/other items with a non-crystalline structure as "crystals" is.... well it's a lot.
But whatever. Not my style of magic, not my geology.
MEEEEEEEE LMAOOOOOO I'm always gritting my teeth about the completely arbitrary use of the words crystal, mineral, rock, stone, gem... those have meanings!!!!! aaaggghh my woowoo gemology mentorship ruined me
this is a bit of a vent but the way that sometimes young white christians will insert themselves into pagan spaces to virtue signal, through stupid superfluous questions, about what a virtuous person they are to accept "paganism" is nothing short of blood boiling to me. I feel like it's a direct mirror of how, for example, white people will ask POC stupid, irrelevant, googleable questions about their culture in a way that's obviously not about interest in their lived experience but out of a desire to illustrate their own righteousness.
except of course in the case of Christians doing it with "paganism" it's just playing into this idea that 'paganism' is a single religion with a single culture, which is oppressed by Christians. which is obviously fucking stupid and the harm of it speaks for itself, but alas white people haven't had the experience of being jerked off at by oppressors to nearly the extent that POC and indigenous people do, certainly not in terms of culture or race, so they either blindly fall for it or genuinely revel in it.
they take the opportunity to lavish the jerker-offer about how different it is from Christianity (which can be translated as "look at how exotic I am"), that there are no holy texts or rules or bad doctrines ("look at how morally superior I am" (which is also "look at how indigenous I am" because of their stereotypes of indigenous religion as more morally pure)), all of which ultimately amounts to "look at what a victim I am" because that's how best to distance oneself from the guilt of whiteness.
they're literally creating this dynamic of inter-white oppression in real time, we're watching it come from nothing into something, just like in the 1950s all these random British people were grabbing the suffering of the people killed during the witch trials and roleplaying that trauma, now we've got neopagans roleplaying the trauma of pre-Christian Europeans.
and anecdotally I've also noticed that it's such a pattern that most of the Christians who do this - who publicly go out of their way to be praised for their tolerance - are either converts or people who grew up disconnected from Christianity and then got into it later in life. which is just even more disturbing to me. I say all this as a baptized and practicing (cultural) Orthodox christian, as somebody who is intimately familiar with Christian theology and conversion processes and dogma.
why, if you fundamentally disagree with some of the core western cultural doctrines of Christianity (e.g. that all people must be converted if possible, that other religions are the work of the Devil, that Christians are in danger of pagans) are you converting to it with all that seriousness and then engaging with that contradiction at length publicly in search of validation? why, if not to knowingly place yourself in that position to weaponize your whiteness to absolve your guilt? why if not to embody whiteness and blood guilt so that you can constantly be told no, not you, you're better, because look at how you tolerate this thing your kind normally don't!
aside from how that's some diabolical moral grandstanding, it's also just horrifically egomaniacal. some of these young tolerant Christians treat being in pagan spaces like they're somehow doing everybody a favor, like it's community service. like a wannabe missionary without the ethnocidal intentions. it's white knighting that's encouraged because the group of people it's being done at have asked for it to be done and not yet discovered all the painful ways in which it does harm - something that people that are oppressed on cultural or ethnic grounds have already had to find out.
it just proves that if the space for oppression is created, that space will be filled with volunteers. people will step up to be the oppressor as soon as that seat becomes vacant, and that willingness is very convenient for the current western narrative. and, moreover, it proves to me that petty and often made up or planted dynamics between white people end up taking up more space in people's minds and lives than problems that exist outside of the white western purview, like, I don't know, the global slave trade and climate change. it's so goddamn disturbing
comically enough it has often been a subset of those same young white Christians in pagan spaces from whom I've had to tolerate being told that I shouldn't be allowed to take the eucharist because I'm not a true believer, that I am doing something morally wrong by attending church, that I am a Christopagan, not a heathen, that me engaging with Christianity at all makes me not a pagan, that me engaging with heathenry at all makes me not a Christian, so on and so forth. it's not all of them - many are too busy acting cutesy about it - but it is a lot of them, because once the power dynamic has been established, Christian imperialism and superiority can take center stage again. once a dynamic of subservience to Christianity has been established, all non-Christian religious activity can resume its regular position as existing only in relation to and in the context of Christianity. I hate it here
if you want to decenter whiteness, you have to also decenter Christianity, and you also have to decenter yourself. you have to stop asking for Christianity to come and colonize you by perpetuating this narrative that there has been an unbroken tradition of Christian-on-Pagan oppression that you personally experience. you have to stop validating Christians and begging for their validation. you have to stop caring if the white belief system is willing to validate your beliefs. you have to stop focusing on how petty inter-white dynamics affect you and focus on the bigger picture of world-scale oppression. you have to stop running from your own whiteness and Christian trauma. just sit with discomfort for ten seconds I beg you
this is a bit of a vent but the way that sometimes young white christians will insert themselves into pagan spaces to virtue signal, through stupid superfluous questions, about what a virtuous person they are to accept "paganism" is nothing short of blood boiling to me. I feel like it's a direct mirror of how, for example, white people will ask POC stupid, irrelevant, googleable questions about their culture in a way that's obviously not about interest in their lived experience but out of a desire to illustrate their own righteousness.
except of course in the case of Christians doing it with "paganism" it's just playing into this idea that 'paganism' is a single religion with a single culture, which is oppressed by Christians. which is obviously fucking stupid and the harm of it speaks for itself, but alas white people haven't had the experience of being jerked off at by oppressors to nearly the extent that POC and indigenous people do, certainly not in terms of culture or race, so they either blindly fall for it or genuinely revel in it.
they take the opportunity to lavish the jerker-offer about how different it is from Christianity (which can be translated as "look at how exotic I am"), that there are no holy texts or rules or bad doctrines ("look at how morally superior I am" (which is also "look at how indigenous I am" because of their stereotypes of indigenous religion as more morally pure)), all of which ultimately amounts to "look at what a victim I am" because that's how best to distance oneself from the guilt of whiteness.
they're literally creating this dynamic of inter-white oppression in real time, we're watching it come from nothing into something, just like in the 1950s all these random British people were grabbing the suffering of the people killed during the witch trials and roleplaying that trauma, now we've got neopagans roleplaying the trauma of pre-Christian Europeans.
and anecdotally I've also noticed that it's such a pattern that most of the Christians who do this - who publicly go out of their way to be praised for their tolerance - are either converts or people who grew up disconnected from Christianity and then got into it later in life. which is just even more disturbing to me. I say all this as a baptized and practicing (cultural) Orthodox christian, as somebody who is intimately familiar with Christian theology and conversion processes and dogma.
why, if you fundamentally disagree with some of the core western cultural doctrines of Christianity (e.g. that all people must be converted if possible, that other religions are the work of the Devil, that Christians are in danger of pagans) are you converting to it with all that seriousness and then engaging with that contradiction at length publicly in search of validation? why, if not to knowingly place yourself in that position to weaponize your whiteness to absolve your guilt? why if not to embody whiteness and blood guilt so that you can constantly be told no, not you, you're better, because look at how you tolerate this thing your kind normally don't!
aside from how that's some diabolical moral grandstanding, it's also just horrifically egomaniacal. some of these young tolerant Christians treat being in pagan spaces like they're somehow doing everybody a favor, like it's community service. like a wannabe missionary without the ethnocidal intentions. it's white knighting that's encouraged because the group of people it's being done at have asked for it to be done and not yet discovered all the painful ways in which it does harm - something that people that are oppressed on cultural or ethnic grounds have already had to find out.
it just proves that if the space for oppression is created, that space will be filled with volunteers. people will step up to be the oppressor as soon as that seat becomes vacant, and that willingness is very convenient for the current western narrative. and, moreover, it proves to me that petty and often made up or planted dynamics between white people end up taking up more space in people's minds and lives than problems that exist outside of the white western purview, like, I don't know, the global slave trade and climate change. it's so goddamn disturbing
comically enough it has often been a subset of those same young white Christians in pagan spaces from whom I've had to tolerate being told that I shouldn't be allowed to take the eucharist because I'm not a true believer, that I am doing something morally wrong by attending church, that I am a Christopagan, not a heathen, that me engaging with Christianity at all makes me not a pagan, that me engaging with heathenry at all makes me not a Christian, so on and so forth. it's not all of them - many are too busy acting cutesy about it - but it is a lot of them, because once the power dynamic has been established, Christian imperialism and superiority can take center stage again. once a dynamic of subservience to Christianity has been established, all non-Christian religious activity can resume its regular position as existing only in relation to and in the context of Christianity. I hate it here
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this is a bit of a vent but the way that sometimes young white christians will insert themselves into pagan spaces to virtue signal, through stupid superfluous questions, about what a virtuous person they are to accept "paganism" is nothing short of blood boiling to me. I feel like it's a direct mirror of how, for example, white people will ask POC stupid, irrelevant, googleable questions about their culture in a way that's obviously not about interest in their lived experience but out of a desire to illustrate their own righteousness.
except of course in the case of Christians doing it with "paganism" it's just playing into this idea that 'paganism' is a single religion with a single culture, which is oppressed by Christians. which is obviously fucking stupid and the harm of it speaks for itself, but alas white people haven't had the experience of being jerked off at by oppressors to nearly the extent that POC and indigenous people do, certainly not in terms of culture or race, so they either blindly fall for it or genuinely revel in it.
they take the opportunity to lavish the jerker-offer about how different it is from Christianity (which can be translated as "look at how exotic I am"), that there are no holy texts or rules or bad doctrines ("look at how morally superior I am" (which is also "look at how indigenous I am" because of their stereotypes of indigenous religion as more morally pure)), all of which ultimately amounts to "look at what a victim I am" because that's how best to distance oneself from the guilt of whiteness.
they're literally creating this dynamic of inter-white oppression in real time, we're watching it come from nothing into something, just like in the 1950s all these random British people were grabbing the suffering of the people killed during the witch trials and roleplaying that trauma, now we've got neopagans roleplaying the trauma of pre-Christian Europeans.
and anecdotally I've also noticed that it's such a pattern that most of the Christians who do this - who publicly go out of their way to be praised for their tolerance - are either converts or people who grew up disconnected from Christianity and then got into it later in life. which is just even more disturbing to me. I say all this as a baptized and practicing (cultural) Orthodox christian, as somebody who is intimately familiar with Christian theology and conversion processes and dogma.
why, if you fundamentally disagree with some of the core western cultural doctrines of Christianity (e.g. that all people must be converted if possible, that other religions are the work of the Devil, that Christians are in danger of pagans) are you converting to it with all that seriousness and then engaging with that contradiction at length publicly in search of validation? why, if not to knowingly place yourself in that position to weaponize your whiteness to absolve your guilt? why if not to embody whiteness and blood guilt so that you can constantly be told no, not you, you're better, because look at how you tolerate this thing your kind normally don't!
aside from how that's some diabolical moral grandstanding, it's also just horrifically egomaniacal. some of these young tolerant Christians treat being in pagan spaces like they're somehow doing everybody a favor, like it's community service. like a wannabe missionary without the ethnocidal intentions. it's white knighting that's encouraged because the group of people it's being done at have asked for it to be done and not yet discovered all the painful ways in which it does harm - something that people that are oppressed on cultural or ethnic grounds have already had to find out.
it just proves that if the space for oppression is created, that space will be filled with volunteers. people will step up to be the oppressor as soon as that seat becomes vacant, and that willingness is very convenient for the current western narrative. and, moreover, it proves to me that petty and often made up or planted dynamics between white people end up taking up more space in people's minds and lives than problems that exist outside of the white western purview, like, I don't know, the global slave trade and climate change. it's so goddamn disturbing
did you know βοΈ you should actually try to read and comprehend the argument someone is making before having a knee-jerk rage response to the argument you imagine them to be making
ngl, I immediately lose respect for anyone who starts a conversation on [topic] by listing out their degrees and credentials as though that should instantly grant them authority over the situation.
I've worked in academia for years, and some of the most ignorant, bigoted, and misinformed people I've ever met have PhDs and professorships (and will never let anyone forget it!); while some of the most intelligent, thoughtful, and educated people I know didn't even finish grade school. you can be an excellent teacher & researcher without any formal credential, and equally you can be a terrible one with all the degrees in the world.
not to say that credentials are meaningless, of course, only that they do not necessarily correlate to one's level of knowledge or quality of scholarship. formal tertiary education is much more about maintaining class barriers, upholding the status quo, and engaging in assimilationist nation-building than anything to do with 'real' learning - and more often than not, it strikes me as rather disingenuous when people feel the need to establish their supposed expertise in that way!
because expertise is something you demonstrate, and something you continually have to reinforce & put work into. it's not something that's automatically conferred & unquestioningly accepted forever ad infinitum just because you passed a few exams at some point.
and I shamelessly feel the same way about practitioners who flex that they have 'x many years of experience' or are a such-generationeth "witch" or call themselves 'advanced' or 'experts' or brag about how educated or learned they are.
it immediately reads as a soulless brag meant to make sure people just assume you're right because you said so. I don't care. when I am in discussion with people about my practice you will never catch me using the amount of time I've practiced or the history of magic in my family or the amount of successful workings I've done as an argument, because I don't want my potential expertise in a given thing to be something I talk about, I want people to see it and trust it.
I could be talking to the densest, most intentionally obtuse, hateful person who refuses to take anything I say seriously because they just hate me and want me to be wrong, and I still am not going to do that. my arguments and points will always be based on how well I can argue for them and support them, not how much of a reason other people should have to think I'm correct. and if that doesn't convince them, then so be it. that's where my moral compass ends. me and that person have no business with each other beyond that point.
and that should be how everybody else treats the same thing. if you need to tell people about how trustworthy you are, or how much of an expert you are, you're almost definitely not an expert. and certainly it will make me take you less seriously, or even treat you as immediately suspect based on how willing you are to make appeals to authority in a social system that rewards that.
stop using chatgpt!!!! take a bronze pin and carve your questions onto an ox scapula, then toss it into the fire!!!! use the cracks to divine the gods answer!!!!
citations still have to be APA 7th edition though. if you plagiarise, the gods will flood the yellow river again. and you'll lose your academic standing.
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Finally managed to harvest some monkshood (aconitum delphiniifolium) to make a tincture with, despite the weather and my health. On the way there I also spotted (top to bottom, left to right) swertia perennis, valeriana capitata, a white variety of lupine (probably lupinus nootkatensis), mycena spp, and my favorite fern, gymnocarpium dryoptera (?)
I don't know where that white lupine came from. It has grown in that same place year after year since the first time I discovered it. The first year it grew, it had sprouted from a pile of white feathers. Another anomaly, as we don't have any all-white wild birds around here. Coincidentally it grows right beside a magic passage, which is how I tend to explain it - a breach of containment, if you will. I tend to pay my respects to it when I see it
A weekly harvest log like this is worth more than most how-to posts, because it keeps the plant in its actual place and season instead of reducing it to a line on a correspondence table. The note about the white lupine returning year after year from a pile of feathers is the kind of detail that only shows up when you work the same ground long enough to notice it. Folk practice lives in that patient attention, not in the shortcut.
for indigenous people on the alt-body spectrum, or those who feel their alt-body identity is in some way related to, connected to, or informed by being indigenous or oneβs indigenous culture
alt-body or the alter body spectrum is a spectrum of bodily experiences that differ from or feel misaligned to the expected human norm. physical characteristics, traits, configuration, or the body as a whole may feel modified, atypical, cross species, or nonhuman at all, generally diverging from standard human body norms. this includes otherkin and alterhuman bodily experiences, sex characteristics that may or may not be intersex or personally identified as that, bodily modifications, or other non-human experiences
many indigenous nations have social and spiritual roles often connected to a form of alterhumanity, atypical body modification, or an outward divergence from the colonial expectations of bodies