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This sick bleach shirt I made. Something to showcase my undying love for prehistoric cave art.

Like imagine not wanting to live somewhere anymore or be around someone but having no choice but to stay there because your life basically depends on it.

I cannot be out at home because my family would be ostracized, I have a friend (cis bi girl) who is constantly physically abused by her mother because she found out that she has a girlfriend. Shit is not safe for queer people in these villages. I am out to classmates and a few professors at my college in the city where it's more progressive but I am misgendered multiple times a day and deadnamed every now and then even though I have been out at college for over a year. I am always seen as a woman when my professors address my class, "all girls class", "I don't see any men here", "you must know this because all of you are girls". 

I do not pass at all and I have no access to hrt or surgeries that would not involve outing myself (additionally I do not even know if I want to pursue those things because I like my appearance but I do not like being misgendered so ugh). I walk a little faster when cis men follow me and my friends, i have been whistled at before, my friends and I have been recorded by a cis man before, I have been told to do things more like a lady by older women before and been told about how I will someday want to birth children. I do not have male privilege.

The only times I am treated like a man is when I'm told that my family is disturbed by me not wanting to shave my peach fuzz or by wearing men's clothes.

(And that's not even getting super into my ex who accused me of SA for telling her I'm questioning being a trans man after telling her in depth about questioning my gender identity for months. "If you do identify as a man well you sure are acting like one" in response to me blocking her because she didn't want me to break up with her after she said more horrible things to me and also tried to tell me that I'm probably not a trans man bc I don't know if I want to physically transition). I'm tired of Americans talking bullshit, I am only acknowledged or treated like a man when others are trying to shame me and disapprove of my behavior, I do not have male privilege.