you're on your own, kid

Need to scream into the void but twitter doesn’t feel safe for that anymore. It’s been three months since the death of one of my favorite people and I have not even come close to starting to heal. I wake up every damn day thinking about if I had just answered that fucking text, maybe she would still be here and that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I don’t want to keep living because life just feels empty without her but somehow that makes me a villain. I am tired and I just want to stop feeling like this but everybody is tired of my grief and I just don’t know what to do with all these emotions anymore. This stupid website gave me everything once upon a time so I am just grasping at finding a little bit of peace here.