tbh I am ugly but I’m also gorgeous it’s very complex

sagittarians typically find it difficult to articulate and convey any distress or anguish they are experiencing. as children they may have been berated for behavioral issues or hyperactivity when disturbance set in. as adults they may express fits of rage or irritability and leave everybody none the wiser as to why. it may be months later that they emerge and tell us what caused them so much pain. when people come to understand their sagittarius better, they can learn to read the alarm bells that they are hurting

Also please don’t think it’s enough to be pretty. The biggest issue I struggle with is seeing beautiful women or thinner women and feeling like I’ll never be that and am therefore worthless but the gag is that beauty is disposable and temporary like shit. It’s not enough to be pretty because prettiness doesn’t save women from pain, it doesn’t save you from being taken advantage of, being harmed, being discarded. Being pretty isn’t some instant cure-all that will end every insecurity. Be kind, be smart, be aware, be necessary, take up space in your relationships and bring some invaluable characteristics to your interactions. When people talk to you, listen to them deeply, try to know them, be engaged, be fucking present. Like I promise you I know it feels like conventional beauty is the key to happiness and being loved by all but it truly isn’t. There are plenty of extremely beautiful women who live empty ass lives and are clawing at their own skin wishing to be something they’re not, too. It’s a fucking trap let me tell you, and comparing yourself to others does nothing for your own growth. The sooner you realize the qualities of your humanity that will stand the test of time and tragedy, those formidable distinctions that set you apart and make you unmistakably you, the better off you are. Do not strive to be the prettiest girl in the room because those silent competitions you set up between yourself and other women bear no real winner. Be the girl in the room everyone wants to be around because you shine so bright in your own skin you let them shine too. Be grateful for your positive interactions with people, cherish your friendships and cherish the space you occupy within them. Live deeply and from a true sense of self that is free of unnecessary self criticism. Give yourself a break and stop chasing pretty. Chase you and find yourself.

Do you ever just smell an old perfume, or hear an old song, or pass an old hangout spot and kinda break inside for a couple minutes.

I’m ok. I’m gonna be ok. I’m gonna live a beautiful life and I’ll get to know beautiful people. I will create things of beauty and be surrounded by flowers. And I’ll love myself, and I’ll be soft, I’ll be kind. And I’ll be ok.

i support girls anger. i support girls who yell. i support girls who get called bitches and cunts at parties because they’ll swear at guys who won’t leave them alone. i support girls who don’t believe in second chances and cut off people who hurt them. i support girls who say no the first time and flip you off if you ask them again. i support girls who will never allow themselves to be pushovers and constantly get shit for it. you’re fucking incredible. 

i cant wait to embrace ugliness and stop letting fear of being seen as even momentarily undesirable stop me living tbh