nina :)

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when i walk through the forest, i feel safe. when i breathe in deeply and inhale the sweet air, thick with the scent of wet leaves from the rain, i feel at home. and when i see you, i feel as if i am the luckiest person alive.

you stand there, feet away from me, staring, smiling, luring me in, beckoning me with your smile because you know i could never say no. you tempt me and i am too a fool to say no. and when i follow you deeper into the forest the comfort begins to leave. the wet leaves become rotten.

the forest, too dark for me to see. but i continue to follow you, because you are the ray of sunshine in the darkness. you make me feel as if i am loved, in a time where i have nobody else. you lead me deeper and deeper until i could never find my way out again without you. and i trust you so, and you know that. and then when we reach the middle of the forest, and all safety and comfort has been leeched from the air you disappear.

you are gone and i am alone once again. and the forest reeks of death, and i am afraid, and it’s humid and yet my mouth is dry. i cannot even breathe for the thick air. but despite where you’ve taken me i still yearn for your light, if only to take me back to safety, to feel that warmth again, to be basked in it once more. you do not return.