twenty nine

05:33 a.m.

I wish I could pin this. LOL💗

(Update; I can! I did!)

February 12, 2026

Kendrick Lamar, Jay-Z, 50 Cent, and Chxrry all inspire me in different ways

Chxrry, with her “this is my vision and I’m going to see it through” attitude - her belief in herself and unshakable, insane confidence. It’s inspiring, especially because confidence is something I struggle with. I felt drawn to her from the start. turns out she’s a girl like me who lost her mom young - her at 14, me at 16. I first found her through a hair post (red hair Chxrry w/ 10k followers) and seeing that belief and confidence build real momentum behind her dreams is sticking to me

50 Cent, with his obvious soft heart hidden behind tough armor and his pure don’t give a fuck what people think mindset

Jay-Z, through his cinematic influences and the smooth way he uses words. like a gourmet chef, a poet, a true word artist

Kendrick Lamar, another poet and a word magician. a truth teller who feels like the fifth member of the scooby doo gang - ripping masks off, pulling curtains down and shining a flashlight on what’s really there - his music reminds me of when I used to smoke weed and suddenly get a bright idea or become deeply self aware and hyper aware of everyone around me lol

11/28/2025

Friday

I hate liking another person romantically

July 27 ‘25

My nephews make me feel excited to live… every time I think of them - the feeling it gives me to know that they exist is equivalent to the full of life feelings I felt when my mom was here.💗

July 21 ‘25

My peers are getting engaged meanwhile I’m sitting in my car, outside of a Noodles & Company playing Sims on my laptop

July 3 ‘25

June 17, ‘25

After being evaluated…

The phrase “Anxious-Preoccupied attachment style with a strong Secure potential” describes someone whose current attachment style is mostly anxious-preoccupied, but who shows signs or capacity to develop a more secure attachment style over time—especially in the right circumstances or relationships.

Break it down:

🔹 Anxious-Preoccupied Attachment Style:

This attachment style is typically marked by:

• Fear of abandonment or rejection

• Need for constant reassurance

• Hyper-attunement to others’ moods or signals

• Difficulty trusting that others truly care

• Over-focus on relationships, often at the expense of self-needs

People with this style often experienced inconsistent caregiving—where their emotional needs were sometimes met and sometimes not, leaving them unsure about when or how to get love and support.

🔹 Strong Secure Potential:

This means the person has traits, behaviors, or self-awareness that indicate they could shift toward a secure attachment style, which includes:

• Comfort with closeness and independence

• Healthy communication of needs

• Emotional regulation

• Trust and empathy in relationships

A “strong secure potential” could be seen in signs like:

• Willingness to reflect on their own behavior

• Openness to therapy or personal growth

• Ability to form at least a few safe, stable relationships

• Emotional intelligence and resilience

🧠 Why This Matters:

This phrase often comes up in therapy or relationship coaching to reframe attachment as fluid, not fixed. It means:

• You may currently act from an anxious place, but…

• You have a real capacity to heal, learn, and build healthier relational patterns.

🚀 Path Toward Secure Attachment:

Someone with anxious-preoccupied tendencies and secure potential can often move toward secure attachment by:

1. Being in safe, emotionally consistent relationships

2. Therapeutic work on childhood patterns

3. Building self-worth outside of external validation

4. Learning how to regulate anxiety and self-soothe

5. Practicing honest, direct communication

✨In Short✨:

“Anxious-preoccupied with strong secure potential” means you might struggle with emotional insecurity in relationships now—but you have the insight, capacity, or readiness to grow into a more secure, stable, and confident version of yourself.