[ H I A T U S ]

So you can imagine my suprise when i opened Twitter and the damn app is a fucking mess.

Like yessss i havent watched the rest of the episodes so im sure some critics are totally valid but my goooood, some of the takes there (and here too) are just AWFUL, like i seriously cant believe we are watching the same show.

And also WHY THE FUCK ARE LOUIS STANS AND LESTAT FANS FIGHTING ABOUT WHICH OF THEM IS THE WOMAN IN THE RELATIONSHIP!! WHY ARE THEY SO OBSSESED WITH THAT! ITS SO REGRESSIVE ON BOTH SIDES! why why why are we tying certain clothes and family dinamics with a specific gender i hate iitttttt

All my life i felt weird. As I grew up i got the feeling i wasn't like my sisters, friends or clasemates but i never knew why. I just thought i was shy and introverted.

But then, 10 years ago or so i got diagnosed with anxiety. Some things made sense then and i finally said wow, so THATS why i am the way i am.

Except, it didnt explain everything. Why i cant name my feelings? Why i dont feel the need to be near people? Why i feel dirty everytime i force myself to go to parties or social situations i know i dont enjoy? Why i feel im lying to people because the me that goes to these kind of things is someone i created to look less weird? Why sometimes i dont get the meaning of things people say to me? Why i cant understand the way people feel things? WHY I CANT FEEL THINGS LIKE MOST PEOPLE?!

So after a very stressful months last year i got diagnosed with autism. I was afraid of people treating me different because of that but at the same time i was so happy to finally know WHY.

Friends and family were very supportive. It was nice.

But man its hard. They know it and sometimes i feel they take advantage of that.

Like literally, i say a thing and for some weird reason they think i did it with ulterior motives to fuck with them? Like why would i do that? I try to control my voice and the way i say things so they dont sound mean and i thought i was doing good but aparently not?

Also you know im cold. But my friends and family need to see me, to hang out, to text and stuff even tho i dont like it, but i do it anyways because its important to them and i dont see as a sacrifice because i care about them and they tell me things like that are important to our relationship. BUT WHY WHY WHY when i reach to them they ignore me? They just told me this was important to them!!

Why you say things to me, make me believe i get what you are trying to say and then change it!!!! Saying that i got it wrong from the beginning when i know its not like that!!!! It makes me feel you are playing with me. I feel stupid. I feel you are taking advantange of me.

Lots of people lost their homes, loved ones, sources of income. In Viña we had a 100+ years old massive garden, home to lot of native species of flora and wildlife and it was totally destroyed by the fire.

And i guess this hits specially for Pedro since almost everytime he comes to Chile, he stays in Cachagua which as Viña is located in Región de Valparaíso.

We need all the help possible and if you care about the man, at least you can donate or share the links he posted.

I tried cutting just the tips of my (former) curtain bangs and accidentally gave myself very short blunt bangs.

Felt kinda cute

Sólo tengo que aguantar 22 semanas más, y se acaba la práctica profesional.

Yo puedo.

Yo puedo.

Its a big thing for our country and i think is good people like Pedro Pascal is speaking up and rising awarenes BUT MAN IT MAKES ME SO SO SO MAD TO SEE HIS (non chilean) FANS PAYING ZERO ATTENTION TO THAT