YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN KID,

( #RECK6NING ) — i have shown you signs and wonders . yet you do not believe ? i offered you hope . freedom from the pit . you spit in my face . mock my family . question my timing . one last chance , an opportunity to repent . but my patience runs thing . there is a reckoning coming . your believe is indifferent . it is inevitable . you will learn you are finite . and you shall all behold what we have become . A MASSACRE IS COMING . —

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𝙈𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙚. 𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙞𝙩 𝙖𝙨 𝙙𝙚𝙚𝙥𝙡𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙞𝙩 𝙖𝙨 𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙮 𝙖𝙨 𝙄 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚.

It’s a good thing she doesn’t remember that fight from a week ago. The ‘you’ll never be my wife’ had set her off, and the venom she spat back out at him would have had her apologizing profoundly, begging on her knees for him to forgive her, if she had any recollection of it. Though she does know she can’t replace his wife. Holly had never meant to, she had never wanted to… but she had hoped he would take her for what she was. Even that seems to be a problem for him.

Though Holly doesn’t blame Wade either. He had the chance to go back to the love of his life, his fiancé. Fuck, if Holly had that chance, she’d probably take it too. And even though he had taken himself from their love life, Wade still tries to communicate with the poor girl, but she can’t handle it. Especially not at this moment, when she hates herself so much. Especially not when she feels so fucking lonely.

Holly knows he’s a grown man. But his disappearance concerned her. Was he dead ?? Was he putting his dick in other women ?? Well he certainly was to his wife back home, wasn’t he ?? Though Holly doesn’t ask in fear of his answer. She’d much rather not know at all than to know the truth at the moment.

Holly knows the man stays because he really has no where else to go. Maybe, just maybe, in another life they could be happy. They could embrace each other without feeling guilty and like it was cheating.

Holly wants to look at him, to say ‘But you did leave.’ though she words die on her tongue the moment she opens her mouth and inhales. She closes lips again as she leans against the kitchen counter. Holly had seen the way Nathan gripped the bear and time travel device late at night when he refused to come to bed. Holly knows he would prefer to not be here. She knows he would have been fine not knowing her. But what she does wonder, if he had miraculously found a way to go back to his family, would he miss her ?? She thinks she knows the answer, and she doesn’t like it.

he did not love holly, not the way she needed. not the way she deserved. & he doesn’t know that he ever will, doesn’t know that he’ll ever feel a damn thing again for anybody. somewhere between the grungy motel room & being covered in wade’s blood, he realized that the bloodshed did not ease the ache deep in his chest. he is a shell of a man & it was holly’s unfortunate duty to try to fix him.

there is a certain level of acceptance that has come with nathan’s return home: that he will never see aliya or hope again & that he must make do with what he’s got. even when brown eyes finally raise to look at holly, they are hollow & any sign of the man she fell in love with is gone. in time, they will find a way to make it work. in time, they will be able to be together without the ghost of aliya & hope looming over them.

his heart aches, but weapons are dropped to the floor & the man collapses onto the couch. hands run over his face, cold metal doing little to ground him to the here & now. he does not reach for the bear that had become a permanent fixture to his utility belt, though it weighs heavy on him despite how little it weighed. when eyes find holly again, he wonders if her words are truthful — did she want him here or was there no forgiving the things they both had said?