Hi there, I'm Enviri | early 30s | they/them | queer | disabled | freak | My blog name is in reference to my late dog Melody, who will always be part of me.
It’s legitimately triggering to me, getting people begging for money in my inbox. Especially the ways which some of them do it.
“$20-30 may not seem like much to you”
Oh??? You know my financial situation???
Fuck off.
If anyone’s curious why I basically never answer asks, it’s because my inbox is full of landmines for triggering stuff surrounding financial insecurity and I cannot handle it, and it only gets added to day by day with what are almost certainly 99% scams which are hoping to prey upon my empathy.
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I've been chewing on this for a bit now as I read posts from trans radfems and posts from intersectional trans feminists and transfeminists, and I feel like there's maybe this...very desperate coping occurring for some of these people.
Specifically, I think there's coping in those who want so desperately to essentially be a cis person rather than a trans people.
That's why you have people trying to push this idea of "I was always x" and "I was never raised to be [birth gender]", among similar ones. It's also why you have people completely twisting and rewriting TERF and otherwise transphobic radfem (so, all radical feminism) history and ideology in a way that is gender-affirming.
No, no, these TERFs don't hate trans women because they see them as fetishizing, sex depraved males! They hate trans women because they're trying to revolutionize what it means to be a woman! They hate trans women because we're women!
And yes, trans women are absolutely women. That's what makes TERF ravings so ridiculous! Except, you are never going to convince a TERF that you or your friend or neighbor or coworker or whoever is a woman. They will always see you as a perverted man.
And you know what? That's their fucking problem. That is their disconnect from reality. That says nothing on you, or whoever is being labeled as such.
The same goes for how TERFs label all trans men as either autisitc or mentally ill young girls who are victims of trans grooming, or their own flavor of sexually depraved monsters. That is their problem. That is the fairy tale they have spun and want to believe in.
I know for me, I take pride and joy in being trans, even with all of the problems that come with it. If I wanted to be cis, then I would be cis. But I'm not. I am distinctly a trans man, and that's not even a full time identity for me!! I'm largely more nonbinary and transmasculine. I'd rather be perceived as having no gender, but if I have to be gendered, I'd rather it be masculine than feminine because that just makes me happy!
I don't say all of this out of "Don't give a fuck, leave it be", but more so in that, when you are fighting for your rights, and the rights of the community, you are going to have to come to terms that no matter how hard you try, how far you transition (if at all), there are always going to be those people who refuse to see you for who you really are,
And that's not your problem to fix.
People's perception of you is not your problem. The rights being stripped away from you and all of us because of those perceptions is what's your problem.
I'm trying to be concise with a very big and nuanced problem, but I think the crux of my point is, don't try to twist and bend yourself to be palatable and pigeon-holed into a specific narrative. Don't fall for respectability politics.
Don't rewrite yourself to try and score in a goalpost that will always be moving. And especially don't rewrite the life of others trans people to also try and score those respect points. That's just an asshole move in so many different ways!!
I'm not sure if this is making sense, as again, it's something I've been chewing on in an attempt to find a good way to word it. This pattern of behavior of my trans siblings getting all bent out of shape to prove that they are, in essence, cis people. You see it a lot in people who try to push cisheteronormative patriarchal gender norms on trans people, who then get pissed when a trans person of any gender goes against it!!
People who get pissed at trans women for loving their facial hair, or people getting pissed at trans men for needing reproductive rights, or getting pissed at nonbinary, multigender, genderqueer, gender non-conforming, xenogender, boygirls, girlboys, so on and so forth for just...having fun and being free from gender expectations. Like, holy shit, these people REALLY DO hate when trans people actually have fun and show joy and pride in being non-cis, it's really fucking depressing.
Being trans isn't some failure you have to right in order to gain the favor of cis people. Being trans is just who you and I are. We can determine for ourselves what that means, but your definition doesn't have to be my definition. My definition doesn't have to be your definition! But to try and expect everyone, the countless amount of trans people out there, to all conform and fit inside of two boxes? That's just unfair, and is also detached from reality.
You don't have to be ashamed of who you were before your egg cracking. That wasn't a mistake in your life story. It was just a different chapter! A different arc! A different story altogether!!
Again, I don't know if this makes sense, but just. I want my trans siblings to be happy with who they are. I hate seeing them break themselves into pieces in order to play to the hands of our oppressors. I hate seeing them hurt each other and their community for not doing the same. I wish and hope that someday, we can move past this, and find that shared joy together once again.
So many people hate their own body so much and are so casually fatphobia toward themself and the thing is, when you're not, when you've healed yourself enough that you can look at yourself and say "my body is just a body that does body things" it becomes nearly impossible to be around people who openly hate their bodies. It feels like they're flinging their muck all over you, and you gotta shake yourself out so it doesn't stick. And misery really does love company. They'll talk about how fat they are and how they can't eat this or that or wear certain clothes or cut their hair short, and they want you to lament with them. And you gotta not, okay? You gotta not. You gotta walk away from that shit.
And you HAVE to pay attention to the things you say about your own body in front of other people, lest you become the person flinging your muck onto others.
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i love declining birth rates 🥰 "what a horrible problem! society will collapse!" oopsie it looks like you're gonna have to make having children worth it 😊 teehee you're gonna have to improve society in order to fix this problem, or it will all collapse. oh noooooo. how horrible. :3c
well maybe they should do something to fix the birth rate so the immense suffering doesn't happen. something like uh, how did i phrase it? "make having children worth it"? idk man i'm just a retard with an iq of negative 20, i have obviously never considered the issues i make stupid joke tumblr posts about in any detail. i bow down before your superior intelligence.
Both "het is only cool if the guy's getting pegged" and "het is only cool if the guy's dick is like three feet long" are kind of nothing stances by themselves, but holding both of those positions at the same time? Honestly, that's almost respectable.
To clarify for those who don't know, "free the nipple" isn't about going braless, it's about going topless
No shirt, no bra, completely bare torso, just like cis men are allowed to
It's about desexualizing breasts and "female presenting nipples" and not being criminalized for our bodies if we want to go topless because it's a million damn degrees out. This was a popular growing movement that was still widely known a decade ago!
And the fact that not wearing a bra is so discouraged and stigmatized that people think the movement was about being able to go braless under your shirt in public rather than about being able to not wear a shirt at all says a lot about how far we've backslid in the past decade
Me: oh no! I'm a trans man being sexually assaulted! Good thing I have my birth certificate on me (which is conveniently marked female of course) so that I can prove to my assaulter that I'm actually female!
Assaulter: *stops assaulting me to thoroughly read my birth certificate* oh my apologies! When I assaulted you for your gender nonconformity I believed you were a trans woman! I am very educated on trans identity and so I now know that is untrue. Now that I know that you have an f on your birth certificate I will no longer assault you now, because people viewed as cis women are never sexually assaulted for gender nonconformity.
Me: thank you for your understanding. Now that you have stopped this has completely undone all the previous emotional trauma of your assault. Have a nice day!
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yall are so fucking weird about gnc people. a woman wears a suit and she's "conforming to the patriarchy". a man wears a skirt and he's Secretly A Trans Egg. have you considered It's Fabric
are you a gender abolitionist or a gender anarchist?
I prefer the term gender liberationist, but I think that mostly lines up with what is meant by gender anarchist. My ultimate goal isn't for gender to be abolished, but for it (and social constructs more broadly) to be liberated, meaning that they are no longer tools of power and oppression, but are properly understood as constructed/historical and fluid, and purposefully (re)constructed and creatively engaged with by free people in a free society.
Not necessarily. Horoscopes are a form of divination, and I don't think gender liberation means treating gender as a way of predicting divine will.
What gender would look like would ultimately be up to communities themselves. The idea is that gender is acknowledged as constructed, while also acknowledging that the construction of cultural identities is a natural thing humans do, and that people have a right to want to be a part of their culture/s and to engage in social construction.
Gender could still have meaning. I think its a mistake that we think acknowledging something was made up by humans means there is no or less value in it; humans are a part of the world, culture is a natural thing for our species to create as a way of maintaining social bonds and navigating life, our social constructs are no less meaningful or valuable than a dam made by a beaver. It's just a thing we do. Like many things humans do, gender has become a powerful tool for oppressive systems to control people and exploit them for power. But I don't think our options are "gender has meaning to people, and is a source of harm" or "gender is meaningless and thus cannot harm anyone."
It's very similar to my feelings on religion/spirituality & also pretty inseparable from my value of democratic synjectivity.
like i do think that to engage properly with theory around anti transmasculinity and exorsexism you should also be engaging with feminism more broadly, and understand feminist history and theory and various approaches etc etc. you are not immune to internalizing shallow pop feminism, or anti-feminist talking points, or just being undereducated on feminism.
bell hooks wrote Feminism Is for Everybody specifically as a short, accessible primer to explain feminist theory without complicated academic language, & you can read it here or watch someone read it aloud here! and you should! at minimum i think everyone should read/listen to this book. if you want to go deeper with hooks, also check out Feminist Theory: From Margin to Center.
i also recommend (although these are varying degrees of accessible & skew US-centric; also, every text can and should be read critically! its good for everyone! critical engagement is an act of mutual respect and encouragement!):
Enemy Feminisms: TERFs, Policewomen, and Girlbosses Against Liberation by Sophie Lewis
Black Feminist Thought by Patricia Hill Collins
"Radical Feminism and Feminist Radicalism" by Ellen Willis
Women, Race and Class by Angela Y. Davis
Capitalist Patriarchy and the Case for Socialist Feminism by Zillah R. Eisenstein
The Feminine Mystique by Betty Friedan
Feminist Theory: The Intellectual Traditions (4th ed.) by Josephine Donovan*
"Wages Against Housework" by Silvia Federici
*as an introduction to the history of feminism & to get a sense of how various feminist theories evolved; Donovan is pretty hostile towards Butler and very positive about cultural radical feminism. so not a source of good transfeminist theory, but has educational value.
#peafowl#wait I'm not a native speaker. are peacocks just the males?!?#as in. the cocks???? are there peahens? (via @mementomirare)
Yep!
Peafowl - all sexes and ages included
Peacocks - adult males
Peahens - adult females
Peachicks - all sexes under "yearling" age (this DOES NOT necessarly mean 1 year old)
Yearling - (Northern Hemisphere) A juvenile peafowl who has passed their first January 1st, but not their second January 1st. (Southern Hemisphere) A juvenile peafowl during their first breeding season year after their hatch year.
2yo - (Northern Hemisphere) A juvenile peafowl who has passed their second January 1st, but not their third January 1st. (Southern Hemisphere) A juvenile peafowl during their second breeding season year after their hatch year.
Mature peafowl - Any breeding-age peafowl past their third January 1st and/or experiencing their third full breeding season after their hatch year. Peacocks must have a full train, peahens must be laying.
There's also some other fun terms
Spalding - A hybrid peafowl with lineage from Pavo cristatus and Pavo muticus. Any percentage of mixed blood is considered a Spalding. There are actually VERY few known pure blooded individuals from either species in the USA anymore. Most "Indian blue" peafowl you see are actually low percentage hybrids.
A "Bevy" is a family group of peafowl, blood related.
A "Party" is a group of peafowl (some people now use other terms, such as ostentation or muster, but Party is actually the correct term), not necessarily blood related.
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"All the trans mascs I know have glowing careers and private health insurance and all the trans fems I know are struggling financially and paying for all their meager health care out of pocket. One is provided upward mobility based on patriarchy and the other is punished by it."
Okay so. I'm stuck in a dead end retail job that doesn't provide insurance at a business where one of my bosses can't gender me correctly to save her life despite the fact that I haven't had a foot in the closet for over a decade. I pay for all my health care and medications out of pocket and effectively work pay check to pay check. Now you know a trans masc who doesn't have a glowing career and private health insurance.
I know a couple trans fems with well paying jobs who are very accepted and accommodated in their places of work, who have health insurance and had their gender affirming surgeries approved by said insurance. They haven't lived pay check to pay check in years.
I know many other trans people across multiple identity lines who are in similar positions to me working dead end jobs and just scraping by. In fact that's most other trans people I know, regardless of if they're a man, a woman, masc, fem, genderless, genderful, it doesn't matter, we're all kind of in the pits together.
The like 3 gender conforming/stealth trans fems I know are an outlier and frankly shouldn't be counted, but could you imagine if I solely based my perception of how trans fems navigate the world based on their experiences alone? That would be fucked up! So why do the exact same thing with trans mascs?
If you're not seeing a broke and struggling working class demographic of trans people, maybe question why you aren't seeing us and where we might be instead of just assuming we don't exist because you personally know a handful of folks who are doing well for themselves.
The Tumbleweed installation just went online in Kern County. It can store clean energy and discharge it for eight hours straight, a harbinge
A new large scale battery project in California is now the first in the country that can discharge stored, clean energy for up to eight hours at a time. The longer discharge time is a crucial next step in meeting 24 hour energy needs with clean power.
Battery storage is now being built at a higher rate than any other kind of on-demand (i.e. not intermittent power sources like renewables) power.
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