⋆. ☆˚࿔ ryann .⁠✧˚⋆ִֶָ.

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𝐼lli being a gross pervert to her girlfriend . She loves sneaking pictures of her girlfriend’s cunt from under her skirt (which you do purposely for Illi’s gaze) with a camera , hugging her femme from behind a little too long (to sneakily try to grind against her) , and out of everything she does , she loves stealing her femmes panties . To see the lace on the pink fabric with a nice slick snail trail from you makes her so wet . She’ll shove a pair of them into her bag when you aren’t noticing and the second she gets home she’ll rub her cunt against them , rub them around the rim of her hole , and/or wear them while playing with the fabric against her pussy . To be fair you know she’s doing all of this , it’s quite obvious , but you couldn’t quite care . Sometimes you wonder why she doesn’t just fuck you instead of being all sneaky but … you’ll give her time to grow some balls and come up to you .

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𝐶lit riding Party poison .. your soaking cunts are pressed against one another with her clit inside your hole . She’s whining and gripping your hips making your sweet little opening graze against her sensitive bundle of nerves . With a whine you get closer to her making your tits sit perfectly right in front of her face , plump with hard nipples bouncing in front of her . Poison’s legs are quivering and shaking from the sensation . She didn’t think having a big clit could bless her like this .

summary — you and ray had gotten into a fight night prior because you were feeling insecure and he comes over next day to fix it

warnings — nipple play, hickeys, hurt/comfort, established relationship, kissing, thats about it😭

i wrote this mostly because i grew up being considered chubby, so i didn’t really write any smut because i wanted this to be a comfort fic for any girls who felt the way i did growing up. hopefully even without much smut this is good for yall <3

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you never meant to be an insecure person, it just happened more than you wanted it to. dating someone like ray, having these girls all over him at shows made your blood boil sometimes.

ray always made you knew that he only had eyes for you, but sometimes, your mind made you think he was just saying that to make you feel better.

last night, it unintentionally caused an argument between you two. trying to tell him how you felt insecure when it came to girls who were smaller than you. and ray muttering “you aren’t even fat babe.” mostly paying attention to the tv and not what you were really saying.

and sure, to some that’s reassuring, but to you it was different.

because he didn’t exactly get what it was like to grow up as someone who already had an opinion placed on them before they got to say a word to anyone.

so you didn’t call or text ray the entire day even though he’s been blowing up your phone. sending constant “babe, i’m sorry please pick up”

you spent the entire day in your apartment binging considering you had no work that day. digging into the pint of vanilla ice cream. clicking through channels to see what could possibly be good to watch.

when you heard your door knock, you groaned. ignoring it at first because you hoped whoever it was could just go away and get the hint you didn’t want to talk.

then after a moment of silence, the door knocked again. this time with a voice.

“babe, answer i know you have off work today.”

great, it was ray.

you sighed and closed your eyes. taking a moment to collect yourself before getting up and shutting the ice cream pint. walking it too the freezer before answering the door.

when you opened the door, there ray was with that stupid cheesy smile and flowers. “they had your favorite” he gave a slight nod.

you looked at the flowers for a moment, trying not to give a smile because he always did this when he messed up. then looking at ray. standing there clearly wanting to make it right again.

you pushed the door open in more so he could come in, still not saying anything.

ray hesitated, just staring at you first before he fully walked in. locking the door fully once he came in.

he awkwardly set the flowers onto your kitchen counter. clearing his throat really before he said anything. “babe,” he rubbed the back of his neck. “i wasn’t trying to upset you yesterday. i was trying my best to be reassuring.”

you bit your lip when he spoke. a nervous habit you always did. “i know,” you finally said. “i was just being over dramatic.” huffing a laugh some after you spoke.

“i wouldn’t call that dramatic” ray cut in immediately. “you were upset.” he took a step closer. being able to smell the cologne he had on. seeing the way his pretty curls framed his face. “and i didn’t really listen yesterday, that’s my fault”

you swallowed hard. “it’s okay, really” you just wanted to let it go now.

the sudden vulnerability making your throat tighten.

ray must’ve been able to see it on your face, feeling his hand gently land on your waist. giving it a soft squeeze. “you know i think you’re beautiful.” rays voice suddenly soft.

“you’ve always been beautiful,” both hands now on your waist, gently pulling your closer to him. feeling your heart rate pick up. “make me have to catch my breath when i look at you.”

you looked away when your eyes start to burn.

it felt so unnecessary to cry over this. but, it seemed too happen every time someone tried to reassure you.

“we can let it go ray” you tried to move on. giving a shaky breath and a weak smile.

clearly, ray wasn’t going to move on.

“can i make it up to you?” he then started to kiss your neck. tensing up at first. “promise i can make it all better babe.” giving another light kiss to your neck.

losing up when he gave another squeeze to your waist. closing your eyes when he started to move to the nape of your neck. giving a shaky “yeah..” back.

ray started to walk you over to the couch, still giving slow kisses on your neck until he went to sit down, pulling you down in his lap with him.

tilting your neck so he had more room to kiss it. his hands going to the hem of your shirt. pulling away from your neck to look at you. his lips plump and soft, eyes glazed some. “can i take this off?”

you took a moment to answer, but you nodded anyways. “it’s okay” your voice practically a sheer whisper.

rays hands slowly took off the shirt and placed it beside him. his eyes immediately looking at your tits. feeling him already harden beneath you.

“you shouldn’t ever worry about your body..” then looking at your stomach, feeling like you’re being inspected at first and making you want to cover up. “to me you’ve always been so beautiful.”

your eyes burned again. the moment feeling so intimate. making you want to hide and hug him at the same time.

ray leaned in slowly and kissed your collarbone. making direct eye contact when he did. making your stomach turn and eyes widening some.

since you’ve been home all day, you weren’t wearing a bra. so he was really handsy. going to your nipples to rub them as he went and kissed down your sternum.

leaving little love bites on your tits, making sure to give the same amount of attention to each one.

“i can’t ever get enough of your baby,” he muttered. his fingers pinching your nipples just a little. causing you to give a breathless moan. “i don’t ever want you to think you aren’t perfect.”

you gave a nod to just agree. feeling that pit in your stomach start to grow

when he pulled away from your tits, leaving them completely littered in love bites. clearly making sure you remember tonight, he kissed you on your lips this time.

instantly trying to catch your breath. both of your lips moving quickly, like you’re trying to keep up with each other. your own hand going into his curls. trying to hold some part of him.

slowly starting to grind your hips against his and getting that soft whimper out of him.

ray pulled away, stopping your hips for a moment, his eyes dancing all around your face. instantly giving the softest smile. “please don’t let those girls get to you.” he brushed some of your hair back.

“it just gets to me sometimes,” you lips formed into a line. trying to not get to into it again. “they’re all so beautiful. the type of girl you should be dating.”

ray instantly shook his head no. his free hand coming up to brush his thumb against your cheek. “no, you’re the girl i want to date.” he said with so much sincerity that it made your chest burn. “the girl i want to love, kiss, hold when she’s upset, bring her her favorite flowers.”

ray rambled, wanting to make sure you felt loved and seen in the way he sees you.

“i never once paid attention to those girls baby.” ray said, his thumb coming to brush away a stray tear that fell.

when it came to these conversations, you had to do you make to not convince yourself that people never said these things to make you feel better.

you just put your arms around rays shoulders and hugged him. wanting him to just hold you.

ray didn’t waste a second, instantly bring his hand to your back to rub soft circles. pressing kisses to your shoulder. “it’s okay, it’s okay” he kept softly whispering to you. feeling more tears fall onto the fabric of his shirt.

when you started feel your body get tired, ray gave a moment to put your shirt back on. still rubbing your back while grabbing the throw blanket on the couch to put over you.

ray moving to lay down on the couch and keeping you on top of him so you stayed comfortable and warm.

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He ate my heart, he a-a-ate my heart out.