STOP talking. I need to say something. Three days ago, I loathed you,
Even despite their inexperience, he doesn’t think the kiss is anything but perfect. It comes to him easily, now – naturally, like this is what he was meant to be doing all along, like kissing Kuroha is the very reason for his existence. (At this moment, he feels like it is.) With each second, he grows more desperate; drapes himself all over the other boy, pushing into him like he’s hoping to break the physical limitations of just how close they can be. Though usually, his reasons for intruding into people’s personal space are malicious at best (never romantic, and certainly never in hopes of getting touched back), this time, research is the last thing on his mind.
A small, soft gasp escapes his throat as the other’s teeth sink into his bottom lip; he tastes blood, undoubtedly his own, and revels in the slight burn the bruise leaves behind. "You should do it more,” he speaks, after a moment, his lips brushing against Kuroha’s. “Mark me, so everyone sees that I belong to you. It’s no fun if we’re just holding hands, you know,” he knows, very well, about Kuroha’s reservations regarding bruises in public, given the scarf he’s currently wearing. Grinning, with a malicious glint in his eye, he leans forward, nipping at the shell of Kuroha’s ear. “I want people to look at us and get offended. Look at us and think about all the horrible things we’re doing when they’re not watching,” he exhales, sharply, against the other boy’s skin, leaning back to watch his reaction.
As far as shamelessness goes, Add definitely has the upper hand.
“I can’t really bite you, but you can still bruise, right? Somehow,” this isn’t the right time to go on a tangent about how amazing Kuroha’s body is, though – how it never ceases to surprise him, how much he wants to get his fingers beneath the other boy’s skin. Instead, he presses his lips against his throat, now exposed due to the lack of his usual, black accessory, and sucks on the soft skin there. He’s not exactly sure how he knows this will work – point is, the blood vessels beneath the skin rupture if you force them to, and – easily enough – as soon as he stops, a red, clearly visible blemish stains the expanse of Kuroha’s pale skin. “If you cover this up, I’ll be sad,” he throws in, after a moment, nuzzling the android’s cheek affectionately.
Humming contentedly as Kuroha reaches to take the black scarf off his neck, he tips his head up, a little, to force the sore muscle to protest painfully. The incident from before seems hazy, now; almost as if his mind is repressing the memory, instead focusing on how good the other’s fingers feel pressed against the dark bruises. “Yeah, yeah,” he confirms, hastily, shifting in Kuroha’s lap; gasps, though doesn’t appear particularly surprised as the other boy tightens his grip. From the very beginning, this was to be expected – this time, however, the way Kuroha slowly applies pressure against his throat feels different; loving.
Before he kisses Kuroha again, short, sharp gasps decorating the small space between them, his fingers curl in the android’s shirt, body twitching in desperate need of air. “You’re the only one who I’ll let inside,” it’s a quiet, barely audible whisper exhaled against the other boy’s lips; a sentence uttered somewhere between one whimper and another. Afterwards, he leans forward to press his lips against Kuroha’s – allows the kiss to coax the rest of the air stored in his lungs out, only satisfied once he can feel his ribcage burn. Though he keeps his eyes closed for most of the kiss, once they open, he can’t see properly anymore, anyway – the world covered in dark, blurry stains, one hand wandering up to claw at the android’s wrist instinctively. Between the kisses, he gasps and groans, helplessly, moving frantically both back and forward, conflicted whether he wants to live or stay in his place.
Ultimately, getting out of Kuroha’s grip is an impossible task, especially like this (and, honestly, it’s not as if he actually wants to) – so he stays, whining into the kiss, as he feels life slip from between his fingers slowly.
As Add whispers, he feels his face turn ten shades darker -- it’s one thing, he thinks, to simply give the upper hand to someone else consciously; it’s another, when he feels control slipping into Add’s hands and isn’t repulsed at the very thought of it. “Why do you think I would-- that I’d want people to--” he stammers, at first, his words coming in short, cut-off phrases; looks into the other boy’s gaze hesitantly -- shyly, almost, in a way that doesn’t necessarily suit him, his lips pressing in a thin line, in his embarrassment. “You’ll... do more of those horrible things with me, won’t you? Tarnish me -- make it so that we can’t think of anything else. Take me apart with your hands, piece by piece, if it’ll let me be closer to you.” Desperately, he closes the distance between them, to push his face into Add’s chest for a heartbeat or two, grabbing the edges of his jacket -- wavers, between wanting him and not wanting to express that very fact.
"I can, somehow." Understanding what Add wants to do, Kuroha instinctively tilts his head up, with a soft sigh; allows his eyes to shut before the sky. Add’s lips against his neck set his skin ablaze, in a way that he’s never felt before; it has him repeatedly shifting beneath the other’s weight on his lap, his breath coming in low groans -- trying, rapidly, to adjust to the unusual burst of adrenaline that rushes through his whole system at once. It’s unprecedented -- like lightning flowing through his veins, a thrill greater than anything he’s ever experienced. In other words, Kuroha hadn’t really bothered with adjusting any accessories that this body had come with--
--which ends up leaving him with the inability to find out how... sensitive that certain regions of his skin are, before this, and in between long gasps and soft, keening noises, the first half of Add’s name constantly dies on his tongue. When Add stops, his first instinct is to whine, displeased with the absence by his neck -- until he realizes the inevitable, dark mark left beneath his skin, making a face as the other boy nuzzles his cheek. “Do you think that being this cute will make me forgive you?” he protests, but he doesn’t bother with keeping up the act, for long. “I guess... I’ll leave it uncovered -- if that’ll make you happy, if that’s what you want from me. But-- only for a day.”
Kuroha presses his thumbs more forcefully, encouraged by the confirmation that Add gives him in return, his breaths coming swiftly and shallowly, inhaling air out of Add’s system as if his life depends on it (it doesn’t, he doesn’t require the element of oxygen). “You’re the only one that I want to be inside of,” he whispers in return -- plays along, but only for that moment; while there’s other things that he could say, he decides to save them for later, choosing instead to continue the kiss; runs his tongue over Add’s teeth, distracting him from focusing only on one thing.
Even though Kuroha knows that Add is entirely willing to let life go, right now (due to the fact that he’d come back, mere seconds later), all humans have a survival instinct that kicks in, that tries to save them regardless of whether they want saving or not -- a final attempt at clinging to life. He’s seen it enough times to recognize when it takes over; smiles, joyfully, at the boy’s feeble attempts to pry insistent fingers away from his neck.
And in the precious few moments that remain, Kuroha opens his eyes; watches the spark fade from Add’s gaze, turning it a dull, lifeless shade of pink -- the indicator that he’d executed his job properly, that he’d done something worthy of approval and praise. With the now unconscious body in his arms, he presses it closer to his chest and holds it there; rubs his cheek against the boy’s neck, murmuring -- “Wake up soon, for me. I'd wait an eternity for you, but I still hate waiting, you know.”


















